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with bowed head, not daring to raise his eyes, lest he should be tempted to undo all his work. 'I was proud of Mark,' she continued, 'because I thought he had written "Illusion." I am prouder now--it is better to be loyal and true, as Mark has been, than to write the noblest book and sacrifice a friend to it. There are better things than fame, Vincent!' Even his devotion was not proof against this last injustice; he raised his head, and anger burnt in his eyes. 'You tell me that!' he cried passionately. 'As if I had ever cared for Fame in itself! Mabel, you have no right to say these things to me--do you hear?--no right! Have some charity, try and believe that there may be excuses even for me--that if you could know my motives you might feel you had been unjust!' 'Is there anything I don't know?' she asked, somewhat moved by this outburst, 'anything you have kept from me?' 'No. You have heard all I have to say--all there is to tell,' he admitted. 'Then I am not unjust!' she said; 'but if you feel justified in acting as you have done, so much the better for you, and we shall do no good by talking any more about it.' 'None whatever,' he agreed. When he was alone that night he laughed fiercely to himself at the manner in which his act of devotion had been accepted. All his sacrifices had ended in making Mabel despise him for calculating selfishness; he had lost her esteem for ever. If he had foreseen this, he might have hesitated, deep and unselfish as his love was; but it was done, and he had saved her. Better, he tried to think, that she should despise him, than lose her belief in her husband, and, with it, all that made life fair to her. But altruism of this kind is a cold and barren consolation. Men do good by stealth now and then, men submit to misconstruction, but then it is always permitted to them to dream that, some day, an accident may bring the good or the truth to light. This was a hope which, by the nature of the case, Vincent could never entertain, and life was greyer to him even than before. CHAPTER XL. THE EFFECTS OF AN EXPLOSION. Mrs. Featherstone made no attempt to detain Mark and Mabel as they took leave of her shortly after that scene in the Gold Room, though her attitude at parting was conceived in a spirit of frosty forgiveness. In the carriage Mark sat silent for some time, staring straight before him, moodily waiting for Mabel's first words. He had not to wa
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