th a laugh: "You look
like some pretty ghost from dreamland--with your white gown and arms and
face. Shall we descend into the waking world together?"
They stood for a moment motionless, looking straight at one another;
then the smile died out on his face, but he still strove to speak
lightly, using effort, like a man with a dream dark upon him: "I am
waiting for your pretty ghostship."
Her lips moved in reply; no sound came from them.
"Are you afraid of me?" he said.
"Yes."
"Of _me_, Shiela?"
"Of us both. You don't know--you don't know!"
"Know what, Shiela?"
"What I am--what I have done. And I've got to tell you." Her mouth
quivered suddenly, and she faced him fighting for self-control. "I've
got to tell you. Things cannot be left in this way between us. I thought
they could, but they can't."
He crossed the corridor, slowly; she straightened up at his approach,
white, rigid, breathless.
"What is it that has frightened you?" he said.
"What you--said--to me."
"That I love you?"
"Yes; that."
"Why should it frighten you?"
"Must I tell you?"
"If it will help you."
"I am past help. But it will end you're caring for me. And from making
me--care--for you. I must do it; this cannot go on--"
"Shiela!"
She faced him, white as death, looking at him blindly.
"I am trying to think of you--because you love me--"
Fright chilled her blood, killing pulse and colour. "I am trying to be
kind--because I care for you--and we must end this before it ends us....
Listen to my miserable, pitiful, little secret, Mr. Hamil. I--I have--I
am not--free."
"Not _free_!"
"I was married two years ago--when I was eighteen years old. Three
people in the world know it: you, I, and--the man I married."
"Married!" he repeated, stupefied.
She looked at him steadily a moment.
"I think your love has been done to death, Mr. Hamil. My own danger was
greater than you knew; but it was for your sake--because you loved me.
Good night."
Stunned, he saw her pass him and descend the stairs, stood for a space
alone, then scarce knowing what he did he went down into the great
living-room to take his leave of the family gathered there before dinner
had been announced. They all seemed to be there; he was indifferently
conscious of hearing his own words like a man who listens to an
unfamiliar voice in a distant room.
The rapid soundless night ride to the hotel seemed unreal; the lights in
the cafe, the nois
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