struction. Those men
rose, not because they wished to rise, but because they strove to do
their duty--to worship the Lord their God with singleness of heart.
Poor Newman! I saw that under his pretended indifference there was no
little satisfaction at the thought of occupying, even for a day, a
position in which he probably had once been accustomed to shine. My
only fear was, that when he got back to the forepeak, and our rough
manners and rougher conversation, he would remark the contrast, and
become discontented with the lot he had chosen.
The next day he and the captain went on shore to the dinner-party. As
he stepped into the boat, and took his seat in the stern-sheets, I could
not help remarking how completely the gentleman he looked. I must own
that I waited with no little anxiety for his return, to hear what had
occurred. I never before had been so intimate with any man as with
Newman. I told him without reserve all that was in my heart, and he
spoke freely to me, at the same time that he never once, even in the
most remote manner, alluded to his past history. It was merely
casually, when speaking of Mynheer Von Kniper, that he mentioned having
been educated in Germany, or probably he would never even have told me
that. On religious subjects, also, he never uttered an opinion; but
from his very silence I had reason to believe that he entertained
notions which were very far removed from the truth. Among all his books
he had no Bible, and no works bearing on religion. He appeared to have
studiously kept all such out of his library, as he did religion itself
out of his thoughts. If I ever alluded to it, even in the remotest
degree, he instantly turned the conversation; and whenever it was
mentioned in the berth, which was, indeed, very seldom, his countenance
assumed a look of cold, callous indifference, or a marked expression of
scorn, which indicated too plainly what were his real opinions on the
subject.
With regard to myself, I had always been a believer, though a sadly cold
and careless one, except when roused by some particular occurrences, as
I have mentioned in the course of my history. I still at this time
continued much in the same dangerous state, but in other respects a
great change had occurred. Deeply, indeed, was I indebted to Newman for
it. He had awakened my mind out of its long sleep, and if I could not
call myself an educated man, I at least had learned to prize the
advantages
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