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m and collected. He saw that his manner irritated Ledyard; felt that it might ruin his chances, but he held to it grimly. "So you saw--the papers?" The eyes under the shaggy brows looked ugly. "Oh, yes. I had them all sent to me. It was very interesting reading after I got over the shock of the wreck and had accepted my isolated position." "I suppose--Boswell keeps in touch with you--damn him!" "Do you begrudge me--this one friend?" "Yes. You have put yourself outside the pale of human companionship and friendships." To this Farwell made no rejoinder. Again he waited. "What do you think I'm going to do about it, now that I've run you down so unexpectedly?" "I have supposed you would tell me, once we got together." "Well, I've come to tell you!" Ledyard leaned back in his chair and stretched his long legs out before him. "But first I'm going to ask you a few questions. Your answers won't signify much one way or the other, but I'm curious. Why did you make such a fight--just to live? It must have been a devil of a game." Farwell leaned against the table and so came nearer to his inquisitor. "It was," he said quietly, "and I wonder if you can understand why it is that I'm glad to tell--even you about it? I don't expect sympathy, pity, or--even justice, but when a man's been on a desert isle for years it's a relief to speak his own tongue again to any one who can comprehend and who will listen." "I'm prepared to listen," Ledyard muttered, and shrugged his heavy shoulders; "it will pass the time." "After the thing was done," Farwell plunged in, "the thing I--had to do--I was dazed; I couldn't think clear. I'd been driven by drink and--and other things into a state bordering on delirium. Afterward, when they had me and I was forced to live normally, simply, I began to think clearly and suffer. God! how I suffered! I faced death with the horror that only an intelligent person can know. I saw no escape. The trial, the verdict, brought me closer and closer to the hideous reality. At first I thought it could _not_ happen to me--to me! But it could! I sat day in and day out, looking at the electric chair! That was all I could see: it stood like a symbol of all the torture. I wondered how I would approach it. Would I falter, or go as most poor devils do--steadily? I saw myself--afterward--all that was left of me to give back to the world. Oh! I suffered, I suffered!" The white, haggard face held
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