FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   102   103   104   105   106   107   108   109   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   >>  
ith her, and her father. He was, however, just leaving them, and did not see me. I knew that her father had known him in Vienna, when the now great violinist was a mere lad, and I had heard that he forgot no one, so the sight gave me a merely momentary surprise. As I joined her, and we stepped out into the night together, I could not help wondering if Rodriguez had noticed her sensitive violin face, as I tried to get a look into her eyes. I remembered afterward that, so wrapped was I in my own emotions, and so sure was I of her sympathy, that I neither noted nor asked how the music had affected her. It was bitterly cold. We walked briskly, and parted at the door. As I look back, I realize how much an egoist an emotional man can be, and in good faith be unconscious of it. The day after the concert was Saturday--a day on which I rarely saw her, as it was my habit to spend all Sunday with her. I was always somewhat an epicure in my moral nature. I liked to pet my inclinations, as I have seen good livers whet their appetites, by self-denial. All day I was restless and depressed. At the piano, with my violin in my hand, it was still that same haunting melody that bewitched my fingers. Whatever I essayed led me, unconsciously, back to the same theme; and whenever that _motif_ fell from my fingers her face appeared before my eyes so distinctly that I would have to dash my hand across them to wipe away the impression that it was the real face that was before me. Afterward, when I was calmer, I knew that this was nothing singular since, whether I had ever reflected on the fact or not, she was rarely from my mind. As I played that melody over and over again, it puzzled me more and more. I could find nowhere within my memory anything that even reminded me of it. Yet I was vaguely familiar with it. When evening came on I was more restless than ever. By nine o'clock I found it impossible to bear longer with my own company, and I started out. I had no destination. Something impelled me toward the Opera House, though I cared little for opera as a rule, that is, opera as we have it in America--fashionable and Philistine. I entered the auditorium--the opera was "Faust"--just in season to hear the last half of the third act. As the sensuous passionate music swelled in the sultry air of the dark garden at Nuremburg, I listened, moved by it as I always am--when I cannot see the over-dressed, lady-like Marguerite th
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   102   103   104   105   106   107   108   109   110   111   112   113   114   115   116   117   118   119   120   121   122   >>  



Top keywords:

violin

 

rarely

 

fingers

 

melody

 

restless

 

father

 

memory

 
calmer
 

appeared

 

reminded


vaguely
 

familiar

 

Afterward

 

played

 
puzzled
 
distinctly
 

reflected

 

singular

 

impression

 

Something


sensuous

 

passionate

 

swelled

 

auditorium

 
entered
 

season

 

sultry

 
dressed
 

Marguerite

 

garden


Nuremburg

 

listened

 

Philistine

 

fashionable

 

impossible

 

longer

 

company

 

evening

 
started
 

destination


America

 

impelled

 

sensitive

 

noticed

 

remembered

 

Rodriguez

 

wondering

 

afterward

 
wrapped
 

affected