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_suspect_; for he would _look upon me_, whenever he saw me, _in such a
manner as shew'd not well_; and at last he came to me, as I was in the
Summer-house in the little Garden, at work with my Needle, and Mrs.
_Jervis_ was just gone from me; and I would have gone out; but he said,
No, don't go, _Pamela_; I have something to say to you; and you always
fly me, when I come near you, as if you were afraid of me. I was much
out of Countenance, you may well think; but said at last, It does not
become your poor Servant to stay in your Presence, Sir, without your
Business requir'd it; and I hope I shall always know my Place. Well,
says he, my Business does require it sometimes, and I have a Mind you
should stay to hear what I have to say to you. I stood all-confounded,
and began to tremble, and the more when he took me by the Hand; for now
no Soul was near us. My Sister _Davers_, said he (and seem'd, I thought,
to be as much at a Loss for Words as I) would have had you live with
_her_; but she would not do for you what I am resolved to do, if you
continue faithful and obliging. What say'st thou, my Girl? said he, with
some Eagerness; had'st thou not better stay with me, than go to my
Sister _Davers_? _He look'd so_, as fill'd me with Affrightment; _I
don't know how_; wildly, I thought. I said, when I could speak, Your
Honour will forgive me; but as you have no Lady for me to wait upon, and
my good Lady has been now dead this Twelvemonth, I had rather, if it
would not displease you, wait upon Lady _Davers_, _because_--I was
proceeding, and he said a little hastily _Because_ you are a little
Fool, and know not what's good for yourself. I tell you, I will make a
Gentlewoman of you, if you'll be obliging, and don't stand in your own
Light, and so saying, _he put his Arm about me and kiss'd me_! Now you
will say, all his Wickedness appear'd plainly. I _struggled, and
trembled_, and was so benumb'd with Terror, _that I sunk down, not in a
Fit, and yet not myself; and I found myself in his Arms, quite void of
Strength; and he kissed me two or three times, with frightful
Eagerness_.----At last I burst from him, and was getting out of the
Summer House; but he held me back, and shut the Door." He then bids her
have done blubbering, and offers her some Money. After this Miss is
afraid to lie alone, and wants a Confidante. Well good Mrs. _Jervis_ to
be sure is glad of the Offer, and some Time passes 'till the 'Squire
comes to Town again.