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wer these questions. Was it--could it be--no--_love_, that I felt for her? No! it was not that; at least, if it was, it was not like other men's love. It was a feeling far purer, far loftier than falls to the lot of ordinary men's experience. I thought that the world did not--never did, nor ever could contain another Maud. She was different to the rest of her kind. _Her_ beauty, _her_ talents, _her_ beautiful nature, could never excite in me such a vulgar passion as that which the world calls love. The thought never entered my head to make her my own, and I was content to worship her at a distance. I began to wonder to myself if Maud could be aware of the strong impression she had made upon me. I even dared to hope, though humbly, very humbly, she might not _quite_ have forgotten _me_; that there was still a spare corner in her memory--I had nearly said _heart_--left vacant in which I might crave a home. Did she, perhaps--here an electric shock ran through me at the very thought--did she feel for me _exactly_ in the same way as I felt for her? Oh, rapture! and I tried to persuade myself that she did, for the thought comforted me. "Ah, Maud, Maud," I muttered to myself, in the midst of my reverie. At that moment I heard the door handle move. "Confound that box-keeper," muttered I. "What can he want, coming to disturb my meditation?" The door opened, and I turned my head to see who it was. Gentlemen, will you believe it? It was Maud, again dressed exactly the same as before. I started, and my blood ran cold, my hair stood on end, my teeth chattered, and my knees knocked together. I essayed to speak, but my tongue refused to give utterance to what I wished to say. I was then in the presence, nay close to, a supernatural essence bearing the lineaments of Maud, whose body I knew for certain to be at her country seat, nearly a hundred miles away. The figure gave me a friendly look of recognition, and seated itself. I fancied it offered me its hand, but I was too dumbfounded to accept it, and remained stupefied. At length this excessive feeling of terror began to wear off, and I ventured to say, in a low tone, broken with emotion, "Maud, is it really you? Speak." "William," said a voice proceeding from the lips of the figure, but which sounded as if it came from a long way off, "William!" And there was the deepest pathos in the tone. It was the first time I had been called thus by Maud. When she was in the b
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