business of the day, and that the
exercises and strength of any past day, are but as nothing for the day
that is passing over us; and many of these days have been passed in much
mental conflict, and much bodily weakness and languor."
1828. "Many, and many have been my fears, lest the good things that
others may see us surrounded with, should be as a stumbling block leading
to covetousness; how hardly shall they that have riches lead the life of
a humble follower of the dear Redeemer! These thoughts often beset me,
and sometimes make me fear, if ever I have a right to open my mouth to
advocate His cause."
"I could wish I had a heart, a head, and a mind fit for all I could
embrace, but that may never be: however, altogether my mind has been of
late, less covered with clouds than it used to be, and my health revives
with it. 'What shall I render for all thy benefits?' may well be the
language of my soul."
In 1829 she was again joined by her dear husband in a visit to Ireland;
after which she writes:--
10th Month, 1829. "We passed through many deep baptisms, many sinks both
of body and mind, and in the course of three or four months, attended all
the particular meetings; I think we did too much in the time to do it as
well as we might; there was much exercise of faith, but patience had not
its perfect work:--may my daily prayer be for patience, and the daily
close exercise of my spirit to obtain it; for want of it, I get into many
perplexities, that might be avoided; yet with all the omissions and
commissions that I can look back upon with shame, I can number this
journey among the many mercies of my life, being at times in it,
introduced into a more soul-satisfying state than I had perhaps ever
known before, and I was never more fully persuaded that we were
commissioned to preach the gospel. The company of my dear husband was
truly a comfort and support, as well as very endearing, and this journey
has enlarged my heart in love to hundreds, and has written many epistles
there, which I trust may never be blotted out."
In 1830, she laid before her Monthly Meeting, a prospect of going to
America. This concern was cordially united with, and she and her husband
were liberated for the service in that land. In reference to this very
weighty engagement, she thus writes to her dear cousin, Elizabeth Fry:--
Darlington, 2nd Month, 4th, 1830.
"My dearest Betsy,
I believe some of thy tenderest sympathie
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