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of the nerves. Gyp was the opposite of those. To force her was the way to stiver up every contrary emotion. She might will herself to acquiesce, but--one cannot change one's nature. And so, while the pigeons cooed and the sunlight warmed her feet, she spent the bitterest moments of her life--so far. Pride came to her help. She had made a miserable mess of it, but no one must know--certainly not her father, who had warned her so desperately! She had made her bed, and she would have to lie on it. When Winton came back, he found her smiling, and said: "I don't see the fascination, Gyp." "Don't you think her face really rather perfect?" "Common." "Yes; but that drops off when she's dancing." Winton looked at her from under half-closed eyelids. "With her clothes? What does Fiorsen think of her?" Gyp smiled. "Does he think of her? I don't know." She could feel the watchful tightening of his face. And suddenly he said: "Daphne Wing! By George!" The words were a masterpiece of resentment and distrust. His daughter in peril from--such as that! After he was gone Gyp sat on till the sun had quite vanished and the dew was stealing through her thin frock. She would think of anything, anybody except herself! To make others happy was the way to be happy--or so they said. She would try--must try. Betty--so stout, and with that rheumatism in her leg--did she ever think of herself? Or Aunt Rosamund, with her perpetual rescuings of lost dogs, lame horses, and penniless musicians? And Dad, for all his man-of-the-world ways, was he not always doing little things for the men of his old regiment, always thinking of her, too, and what he could do to give her pleasure? To love everybody, and bring them happiness! Was it not possible? Only, people were hard to love, different from birds and beasts and flowers, to love which seemed natural and easy. She went up to her room and began to dress for dinner. Which of her frocks did he like best? The pale, low-cut amber, or that white, soft one, with the coffee-dipped lace? She decided on the latter. Scrutinizing her supple, slender image in the glass, a shudder went through her. That would all go; she would be like those women taking careful exercise in the streets, who made her wonder at their hardihood in showing themselves. It wasn't fair that one must become unsightly, offensive to the eye, in order to bring life into the world. Some women seemed proud to be like
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