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than she had ever had in absolute possession before, wherewith to fit herself for the journey. She tried to refuse half of it--told him the sum was preposterous, that less than half of what he was giving would provide her with the most expensive of frocks for the rest of her life. "Sixty pounds?" he said. "My sister spends that in half an hour at a dressmaker's in Dover Street." "Ah, yes, but that's your sister," she had objected pathetically. "And you?" "But thirty pounds will really be more than enough." It lay deep in her mind, never offering to rise to the surface, to remind him that she was not his wife. But he would not give way. He had said sixty pounds--sixty pounds it had to be. So he mastered her, without effort, at every turn. She went then with Janet to the shops--she, and her sixty pounds, gripped tight in brittle ten-pound notes in her purse. At that time she was still staying on at Kew, still attending her office in King Street; but at both places she had given notice to leave, and in a week's time would be free. Her first intimation to Janet of all that had occurred and all that was to follow, was made, as usual, one night, when the darkness hid her face, and she could only tell by the sound of Janet's breathing what effect her story might have. When she had finished, Janet made use of that remark--justified in her case--which every prophet, false or true, utters at one time or another-- "Didn't I tell you so?" But then she went on, and they had talked far into the night; and at every moment, when doubt or regret seized and shook Sally with a quivering remorse, Janet laughed at her fears. "You've got the best bargain in the world," she exclaimed. "You want a man's love--you've got it--haven't you? And yet you're free--as free as air. If you should tire--" Sally laughed bitterly. "Very well, then, if he should tire, you're your own mistress. All this caging of wild birds seems to me to be futile. Morals? Oh, morals be hanged! Are you going to call yourself immoral because the man has no great respect for matrimony?" "Yes; but I have." "You have! That's only because you were dragged up in a rectory, just outside the church door. I can't understand you. You've shaken off your belief in lots of things--you don't believe in the actual divinity of Christ--yet you cling to an antiquated sacrament that dates back long before the time of a man whose statement that he was the
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