FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   129   130   131   132   133   134   135   136   137   138   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153  
154   155   156   157   158   159   >>  
ine to you about my sordid grievances." "Kenrick, don't," she said, impulsively putting forth her hand to rest on mine. "`Whine,' indeed! That isn't you anyway. Why, I am proud of your confidence, and sorry--oh, so sorry--for its cause. But you must cheer up. I have an instinct that everything will come right. It sometimes does, you know." Would it? I thought I knew better, but I had done enough grizzling already, so was not going to say so. And I thought with a certain bitterness that her sympathy, sweet as it was, was not of the nature I could have wished it to be. Even then the concern in her tone, the softening of her eyes, the touch of her hand as she stood facing me, scattered my resolution to the winds. She should know all, then and there--all--all. "So you think that everything will come right, do you?" I said, pretending to do something with the spade so as not to be obliged to look at her. "Yes. I have an instinct that way." "But if it can't?" "That is an `if' in which my belief is somewhat feeble," she answered confidently. "Supposing I--er, supposing a man had lost all he had in the world, and that beyond all possibility of recovery--what then?" "He might remedy the loss. Energy, some resourcefulness, and a great deal of common sense, constitute not a bad foundation for a fresh start--say in a country like this." The cool, practical, matter-of-fact tone of this reply fairly startled me--and then--Great Scott! the remarks that Pentridge had let fall during our conversation a day or two back, gratifying to myself in that they reflected the estimation in which I seemed to be held, flashed across my mind. Beryl's words were spoken with a purpose--were meant to be taken home, and with the idea came another. Could I, without anything definite passing between us, turn the key of her mind as regarded herself? "Yes, he might remedy the loss--after a time," I said, still pretending to work with the spade--still not looking at her. "After a time. But what if that time were too late?" "Could it ever be?" "Why, yes. Because by that time what would have made success worth striving for might be no longer attainable; might have passed out of reach irrevocably and for ever." She did not answer. In the tensity of the silence the clink of my spade in the dry dusty furrow seemed to my wrought-up mind to sound as with a loud hammering. A network of sunlight, from the deep blue
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   129   130   131   132   133   134   135   136   137   138   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153  
154   155   156   157   158   159   >>  



Top keywords:

thought

 
pretending
 

remedy

 

instinct

 

Pentridge

 

spoken

 
remarks
 
fairly
 

matter

 

startled


purpose

 

gratifying

 

flashed

 

reflected

 

estimation

 
conversation
 

answer

 
tensity
 

silence

 

irrevocably


attainable

 

longer

 

passed

 
sunlight
 

network

 

hammering

 

furrow

 

wrought

 
striving
 

regarded


passing

 

definite

 
practical
 

success

 

Because

 

grizzling

 
nature
 
wished
 

sympathy

 

bitterness


impulsively
 

putting

 

Kenrick

 

sordid

 

grievances

 

confidence

 

concern

 
softening
 

Energy

 
resourcefulness