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man of proud spirit, queenly and commanding, beyond air beautiful. She does not think thus of herself, as, leaning over the guard-rail, with eyes mechanically bent upon the wheel, she watches it whipping the water into spray. Her thoughts are not of lofty pride, but low humiliation. Spurned by him at whose feet she has flung herself, so fondly, so rashly--ay, recklessly--surrendering even that which woman deems most dear, and holds back to the ultimate moment of rendition--the word which speaks it! To Charles Clancy she has spoken it. True, only in writing; but still in terms unmistakeable, and with nothing reserved. And how has he treated them? No response--not even denial! Only contemptuous silence, worse than outspoken scorn! No wonder her breast is filled with chagrin, and her brow burning with shame! Both may be ended in an instant. A step over the low rail--a plunge into the red rolling river--a momentary struggle amidst its seething waters--not to preserve life, but destroy it--this, and all will be over! Sadness, jealousy, the pangs of disappointed love--these baleful passions, and all others alike, can be soothed, and set at rest, by one little effort--a leap into oblivion! Her nerves are fast becoming strung to the taking it. The past seems all dark, the future yet darker. For her, life has lost its fascinations, while death is divested of its terrors. Suicide in one so young, so fair, so incomparably lovely; one capable of charming others, no longer to be charmed herself! A thing fearful to reflect upon. And yet is she contemplating it! She stands close to the rail, wavering, irresolute. It is no lingering love of life which causes her to hesitate. Nor yet fear of death, even in the horrid form, she cannot fail to see before her, spring she but over that slight railing. The moon has arisen, and now courses across the blue canopy of sky, in full effulgence, her beams falling bright upon the bosom of the river. At intervals the boat, keeping the deeper channel, is forced close to either bank. Then, as the surging eddies set the floating but stationary logs in motion, the huge saurian asleep on them can be heard giving a grunt of anger for the rude arousing, and pitching over into the current with dull sullen plash. She sees, and hears all this. It should shake her nerves, and cause shivering throughout her frame. It does neither. The despair of life has deadened the dre
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