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said, "suppose you were to drown yourself and your husband were to repent?" "That is the only hope left me. You see yourself I have no choice." "You have no pity, it seems; for what then would become of him? What if he should come to himself in bitter sorrow, in wild longing for your forgiveness, but you had taken your forgiveness with you, where he had no hope of ever finding it? Do you want to punish him? to make him as miserable as yourself? to add immeasurably to the wrong you have done him, by going where no word, no message, no letter can pass, no cry can cross? No, Juliet--death can set nothing right. But if there be a God, then nothing can go wrong but He can set it right, and set it right better than it was before." "He could not make it better than it was." "What!--is that your ideal of love--a love that fails in the first trial? If He could not better that, then indeed He were no God worth the name." "Why then did He make us such--make such a world as is always going wrong?" "Mr. Wingfold says it is always going righter the same time it is going wrong. I grant He would have had no right to make a world that might go further wrong than He could set right at His own cost. But if at His own cost He turn its ills into goods? its ugliness into favor? Ah, if it should be so, Juliet! It _may_ be so. I do not know. I have not found Him yet. Help me to find Him. Let us seek Him together. If you find Him you can not lose your husband. If Love is Lord of the world, love must yet be Lord in his heart. It will wake, if not sooner, yet when the bitterness has worn itself out, as Mr. Wingfold says all evil must, because its heart is death and not life." "I don't care a straw for life. If I could but find my husband, I would gladly die forever in his arms. It is not true that the soul longs for immortality. I don't. I long only for love--for forgiveness--for my husband." "But would you die so long as there was the poorest chance of regaining your place in his heart?" "No. Give me the feeblest chance of that, and I will live. I could live forever on the mere hope of it." "I can't give you any hope, but I have hope of it in my own heart." Juliet rose on her elbow. "But I am disgraced!" she said, almost indignantly. "It would be disgrace to him to take me again! I remember one of the officers' wives----. No, no! he hates and despises me. Besides I could never look one of his friends in the face agai
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