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unsteady and were trying to get steady. He left his seat to attend to
the roast; got a plate and put on the hearth under it; arranged the
fire; then came and with his own hands removed Matilda's hood and
loosened and threw back her cloak; and while he did this he repeated
his question, in tones that were encouragement itself.
"I wished you would come and tell me if--if what?"
"Yes, Mr. Richmond--if I thought I could not do something that I
thought--I ought."
"Yes, I believe that was it, Tilly. Now, to begin with one thing at a
time, what do you think you 'ought' to do?"
"Last night, I mean, Mr. Richmond; I mean, the night before last, at
the meeting."
"I know. Well, what did you think then you ought to do?"
"Mr. Richmond, I think, I thought that I ought to rise up when Maria
and the others did."
"I knew you thought so. Why did you not, then, Matilda?"
"I couldn't."
"Do you know why you could not?"
Again there was difficulty of speech on the child's part. Mr.
Richmond's saying that "he knew" she had had such feelings, was an
endorsement to her conscience; and Matilda could not immediately get
over a certain swelling in her throat, which threatened to put a stop
to the conversation. The minister waited, and she struggled.
"Why could _you_ not do what the others did, Matilda?"
"Mr. Richmond--I didn't want to do the things."
"What things? Bringing new scholars to the Sunday-School, for instance?"
"Oh no, sir, I wouldn't mind doing _that_, or some other things either.
But----"
"You mean, you do not want to pledge yourself to be a servant of the
Lord Jesus Christ?"
"No, sir," after a pause, and low.
"Well, Tilly," said the minister, "I can only be very sorry for you.
You keep yourself out of a great joy."
"But, Mr. Richmond," said Matilda, down whose cheeks quiet tears were
now running, one after another; "don't you think I am very young yet to
be a member of the Church?"
"Do you think Jesus died for you, Tilly?"
"Yes, sir."
"Do you believe He loves you now?"
"Yes, sir."
"You understand all about that. Does _He_ want you to be His obedient
child and dear servant?"
"Yes, Mr. Richmond."
"You know all about that, too. Can you think of any reason why you
should for another year refuse to love Him, refuse to mind Him, and do
all that your example and influence can do to keep others from loving
and minding Him? When He so loves and has loved you?"
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