FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75  
76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   98   99   100   >>   >|  
ilence of God." He made no answer and leaned heavily on the back of his chair. A moment later he began to walk again. "I don't think I _can_ believe that the heroic sacrifice of youth, their bitter suffering, will be mixed up indistinguishably with the cunning meanness of pleasure-seekers, with the sordid humbug of money-makers--in one vast forgotten grave. No, I can't believe that--because the world we know is a rational world." May glanced round at him as he moved about. The great dimly-lit room was full of shadows, and Middleton's face was dark, full of shadows too, shadows of mental suffering. She looked back at her work and sighed. "Even if we straighten the crooked ways of life, so that there are no more starving children, no men and women broken with the struggle of life: even if we are able, by self-restraint, by greater scientific knowledge to rid the earth of those diseases that mean martyrdom to its victims; even if hate is turned to love, and vice and moral misery are banished: even if the Kingdom of Heaven does come upon this earth--even then! That will not be a Kingdom of Heaven that is Eternal! This Earth will, in time, die. This Earth will die, that we know; and with it must vanish for ever even the memory of a million years of human effort. Shall we be content with that? I fail to conceive it as rational, and therefore I cling to the _hope_ of some sort of life beyond the grave--Eternal Life. But," and here he spoke out emphatically, "I have no argument for my belief." He came and stood close beside her now, and looked down at her. "I have no argument for my belief," he repeated. "And you are content with the silence of God," he added. Then he spoke very slowly: "I must be content." If he had stretched out his hand to touch hers, it would not have meant any more than did the prolonged gaze of his eyes. The clock on the mantelpiece ticked--its voice alone striking into the silence. It seemed to tick sometimes more loudly, sometimes more softly. The Warden appeared to force himself away from his own thoughts. With his hands still grasping the back of his chair, he raised his head and stood upright. The tick of the clock fell upon his ear; a monotonous and mechanical sound--indifferent to human life and yet weighted with importance to human life; marking the moments as they passed; moments never to be recalled; steps that are leading irretrievably the human race to their far-off destiny.
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72   73   74   75  
76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   98   99   100   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

content

 

shadows

 

silence

 
belief
 

argument

 

looked

 
rational
 

moments

 

Heaven

 
Kingdom

Eternal

 

suffering

 

stretched

 

slowly

 

emphatically

 

conceive

 

repeated

 

mechanical

 

indifferent

 

weighted


monotonous

 

raised

 

grasping

 

upright

 

importance

 

marking

 

irretrievably

 

destiny

 
leading
 

passed


recalled
 
ticked
 
mantelpiece
 

striking

 

prolonged

 

thoughts

 

loudly

 

softly

 

Warden

 

appeared


forgotten

 

glanced

 

sordid

 

humbug

 

makers

 

Middleton

 

seekers

 

pleasure

 

moment

 
heavily