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ute ignoring of any reason for withholding this confidence from him at first staggered Gaston, and then steadied him. Never before had Joyce so appealed to him, but the sacredness of the position she had thrust upon him for a moment appalled him. He looked intently at the girlish, innocent face. What he saw was a blind woman, groping through the child, seeking a reality that evaded it. Never greatly impressed with his own importance, Gaston became cruelly aware, now, that in a marked way he still was the one being in the girl's world to whom she looked for guidance. The knowledge made him withdrawn for an instant. Drew had appealed to her spirit--but he was elected Father Confessor, Judge and General Arbiter of her daily life. For a moment Gaston's sense of the ridiculous was stirred. Suppose they--those--people who inhabited the Past, and peopled the possible Future--suppose they should know of this? The eyes twinkled dangerously, but the girl in the glow of the red fire was terribly in earnest. "You are perfectly happy, Joyce?" It was an inane question, but like some inane questions it touched a vital spark. "Why, if I get on the top of the things that might make me unhappy if they conquered me; and if I shut my ears and eyes--why, then, I guess I'm perfectly happy. I won't _let_ myself feel sad any more, and I make believe a lot--about Jude. You have to when you've been married long; and I guess he has to about me. So you see, living that way it comes out all right. And then when you have beautiful things, like this house, and the books and pictures, and some one ready to help--like you--why _those_ things I just hold up in the light all the time. Isn't _that_ being happy?" "What a philosopher!" Gaston bent forward and again pressed the slim shoulder. The piteousness of this young wife getting her happiness, all unknowingly, by self-imposed blindness of the inner soul, clutched at his heart. "Hold hard to that, Joyce," he said. "Hold fast to that. Let all the light in that you can upon your blessings, and as to other things, why, don't acknowledge them! You're on the right track, though how you've struck it so early in the game, beats me." "Well," Joyce was all aglow, "Mr. Drew helped. He was so funny and jolly. Just a big boy, but he had the queerest ideas about things. When I think of him, sick and weak like he was, and yet living out all his brave thoughts just as if he was a giant--why, sometimes
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