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nd beheld the fire of her shining eyes, of which I can give no idea to those who have never known their dear ones struck down by her fatal malady, unless I compare those eyes to balls of burnished silver. "Die!" I said. "Henriette, I command you to live. You used to ask an oath of me, I now ask one of you. Swear to me that you will send for Origet and obey him in everything." "Would you oppose the mercy of God?" she said, interrupting me with a cry of despair at being thus misunderstood. "You do not love me enough to obey me blindly, as that miserable Lady Dudley does?" "Yes, yes, I will do all you ask," she cried, goaded by jealousy. "Then I stay," I said, kissing her on the eyelids. Frightened at the words, she escaped from my arms and leaned against a tree; then she turned and walked rapidly homeward without looking back. But I followed her; she was weeping and praying. When we reached the lawn I took her hand and kissed it respectfully. This submission touched her. "I am yours--forever, and as you will," I said; "for I love you as your aunt loved you." She trembled and wrung my hand. "One look," I said, "one more, one last of our old looks! The woman who gives herself wholly," I cried, my soul illumined by the glance she gave me, "gives less of life and soul than I have now received. Henriette, thou art my best-beloved--my only love." "I shall live!" she said; "but cure yourself as well." That look had effaced the memory of Arabella's sarcasms. Thus I was the plaything of the two irreconcilable passions I have now described to you; I was influenced by each alternately. I loved an angel and a demon; two women equally beautiful,--one adorned with all the virtues which we decry through hatred of our own imperfections, the other with all the vices which we deify through selfishness. Returning along that avenue, looking back again and again at Madame de Mortsauf, as she leaned against a tree surrounded by her children who waved their handkerchiefs, I detected in my soul an emotion of pride in finding myself the arbiter of two such destinies; the glory, in ways so different, of women so distinguished; proud of inspiring such great passions that death must come to whichever I abandoned. Ah! believe me, that passing conceit has been doubly punished! I know not what demon prompted me to remain with Arabella and await the moment when the death of the count might give me Henriette; for she would ever
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