n.
Though Thady had never known the refinements of a gentleman, or the
comforts of good society, still he felt that the fall, even from his
present station to that in which he was going to place himself, would
be dreadful. But it was not the privations which he might suffer, but
the disgrace, the additional disgrace which he would bring on his
family, which afflicted him. How could he now presume to prescribe
to Feemy what her conduct should be, or to his father in what way he
should act respecting the property? He already felt as though he was
unworthy of either of them, and was afraid to look them in the face.
After breakfast he wandered forth, striving to attend to his usual
work, but the incentives to industry were all gone; he had no longer
any hope that industry would be of service to him; he walked along
the hedges and ditches, unconsciously planning in his mind the
different ways of committing the crimes which he really so abhorred,
but in which he was about to pledge himself to join. He thought, if
it should be his lot to murder Keegan, how he would accomplish it.
Should it be at night?--or in the day?--would he shoot him?--and if
he did, would not the powder or the gun be traced home to him?--would
not his footsteps in the bog be tracked and known?--if he struck him
down on the road, would not the blood be found on his coat, or his
shirt be torn in the struggle?--and, above all, would not his own
comrades betray him? He had, some short time since, heard the whole
of a trial for murder at Carrick assizes, and though he had not
then paid particular attention to it, all the horrid detail and
circumstances of the case now came vividly before his mind's eye. He
planned and plotted how, had he in that case been the murderer, he
would have foreseen and provided against the different things, the
untoward accidents, which then came in evidence against the prisoner;
he thought how much more wary he would be than the poor wretch who
was then tried, and of what benefit the experience he had gained
would be to him. Then he remembered that the principal witness in the
case was an ill-featured, sullen-looking fellow, who had been called
king's evidence--one who, in answering the tormenting questions
put to him, had appeared almost more miserable than the prisoner
himself;--that this man had been the friend and assistant of the
murderer--the sharer and promoter of all his plans--the man who had
led him on to the murder--his
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