end of
December, when I started on my long cruise.

I felt very, very sorry to leave you, but something told me that it was
better to do so. I remember you seemed to feel the same, and we kissed
each other goodbye as though we were both sorry for something that had
to be.

Leaving the question of dual or multiple personality aside, and putting
the matter very simply, I believe that my soul made a right choice in
you my wife. I believe that alcohol was necessary for a while to put my
body, even at its expense, into a state of conductivity, so that my
soul, when I was somewhat alcoholized, could gain some expression; give
some glimpses of itself and suggest the trend of my powers. For this
reason I believe that some men are made to drink and drug--but that is
another subject which I hope to take up with you more fully at some
future time.

My soul self has always wanted my wife's soul self, and I believe that
if I could have you back, my conquered body self would never need to
wander from home. A little more pliability--all you ever lacked, and
which your trouble should have brought you, could make it so that we
could live together in very perfect harmony. Then I could release a lot
of good plays and good writings, much of which I know already has been
completed by my subliminal self. I get frequent glimpses of parts of
plays, plots and ideas.

You cannot but feel proud of the success of my last book, which ought to
show you that I'm getting a grip of myself. My mother and I were _en
rapport_ and under the dual personality theory, it is reasonable to
suppose that I have been guided by her since her death. I certainly have
been guided by God or by her, and it is reasonable to believe that she
is God's instrument of my guidance.

A young man makes whole ranges of mountains out of tiny mole hills
which, when he has learned sense, he will spread under his foot without
noticing them. Most of our differences were mere mole hills, dear, which
couldn't thwart us now. For we are too big now, to be so easily
thwarted. Can't we give each other the chance to prove this to each
other?

If you will permit me I will love your child as my own--as every real
man ought to love every child, dear little unfinished human beings.
Formerly I thought I knew a good deal; but God knew better and took me
away from you to teach me a few lessons. For they were lessons that I
alone needed and God did not want you to undergo them as well as me