s love. Little by little she felt it relaxing and sinking
through carelessness into neglect: and the whole scheme of her
atonement rested on his continuing fondness. She had never loved
him, but his love was, if not infinitely precious, of infinite moment
to her. She needed it to sustain her and keep her in the right way.
She omitted no small attentions which might make home pleasant to
him. She kept the house bright (they had moved into Frith Street and
lived over the shop), and unweariedly coaxed his appetite with her
cookery, in which--and especially in pastry-making--she had a born
gift. The fumes of the lead-works at the back often took her own
appetite away and depressed her spirits, but she never failed to
rouse herself and welcome him with a smile. Also (but this was to
please herself) sometimes by a word of advice in the matter of toilet
or of clothes, oftener by small secret attentions with the needle,
she had gradually reformed his habits of dress until now he might
pass for a London tradesman of the superior class, decently attired,
well shaven and clean in his person. He resigned himself to these
improvements with much good-nature and so passed through his
metamorphosis almost without knowing it. She practised small
economies too; and he owned (though he set it down to his own
industry) that his worldly affairs were more prosperous than ever
they had been before his marriage. But the fumes of the lead-works
affected _his_ appetite, too, and his spirits: and when these flag a
man has an easy and specious remedy in brandy-and-water. By and by
it became a habit with him, when his men ceased work, to stroll down
to the "Turk's Head" for a "stiffener" before his meal. The men he
met there respected him for a flourishing tradesman and flattered
him. He adored his wife still. In his eyes no woman would compare
with her. But there was no denying he felt more at home in company
which allowed him to tell or listen to a coarse story and stretch his
legs and boast at his ease.
He was not aware of any slackening in affection. But Hetty noted it
and fought against it, though with a sinking heart. She had counted
on this babe to draw him back--if not to her, then at least to home.
When told that it was dead, on an impulse she had turned her face at
once to him and with a heart-rending look appealed for his
forgiveness. He did not understand. Yet he behaved well, stroking
her head and saying what he cou
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