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eth. Those red hands of murder could not be washed white by the ocean, they could only "the multitudinous seas incarnadine, making the green one red." What if I cannot be decolorized by any sea? What if my flesh only pollutes the sea, when I plunge, and makes all black? God help me!!! You are a negrophile and don't half understand. 'Yours truly, 'J. CARRAWAY.' I questioned the steward. He had found the letter in my place at table. Sure enough there was a third-class passenger missing. I suppose Carraway had slipped off quietly in the moonlight to try his desperate experiment. It was a cruel business his monomania. If I had broken my promise and called the doctor earlier, could he have been cured? Or would he have lingered in an asylum shuddering over the fictitious glooming of his nails and skin, shaking in a long ague of negrophoby. Anyhow, I'm sorry I didn't do more for him, didn't walk him round the deck the last night at least, and try my best to cheer him. Yes, I blame myself badly for not doing that. May God who allowed his delusion pardon that last maneuver of his! I do not think Carraway had any clear wish to take his own life. I can imagine the scene so convincingly Carraway pausing, hesitating, then plunging into the moon-blanched water from the dizzy height above, eager to find which the multitudinous seas would do would they change his imagined color, or would they suddenly darken, matching in their tints his own discoloration? AN OLD-WORLD SCRUPLE 'If you come back, which Heaven ordain, you'll be all the more use to the priesthood,' the Superintendent of Missions said. 'Go and serve with our fearless and faithful, approach as an acolyte the altar of freedom. Supposing you don't see your way to go, I would remind you of a certain passage about "Curse ye Meroz!" I need not insult your knowledge of the Scriptures by finishing my quotation.' Osborne listened respectfully, but his eyes were looking far away, with dreams of the veld in them. The Superintendent's preaching of a sort of Christian Jehad appealed to him infinitesimally. There was a silence. He knocked his pipe out, and offered the Superintendent a sundowner. 'I'm glad to have had your opinion,' he said. 'I take it you don't want me just now as a candidate for ordination?' The Superintendent flushed and hesitated. 'You mustn't put it like that,' he said almost irritably. 'The decision rests with you, of
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