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seen her. She did not speak, but played with the boughs of a coronella near her. "You remember" (I went on speaking as briefly as possible, lest the old lady's toilet should be finished, and our tete-a-tete cut short) "I gave you my word of honor never to speak again of what you told me in the Kursaal last autumn until you gave me leave; that leave I ask you for now. Silence lies in the way of your own happiness, I feel sure, and not alone of yours. If you give me carte blanche, you may be certain I shall use it discreetly and cautiously. You made the prohibition in a moment of heat and passion; withdraw it now--believe me, you will never repent." The flush died out of her cheeks as I spoke; but her little, white teeth were set together as they had been that night, and she answered me bitterly,-- "You ask what is impossible; I cannot, in justice to myself, withdraw it. I would never have told you, but that I deemed you a man of honor, whom I could trust." "I do not think I have proved myself otherwise, Beatrice. I have kept my word to you, when I have been greatly tempted to break it, when I have doubted whether it were either right or wise to stand on such punctilio, when greater stakes were involved by my silence. Surely, if you once had elevated mind enough to comprehend and admire such a man as Earlscourt, and be won by the greatness of his intellect to prefer him to younger rivals, it is impossible you can have lowered your taste and found any one to replace him. No woman who once loved Earlscourt could stoop to an inferior man, and almost all men _are_ his inferiors; it is impossible you can have grown cold towards him." She turned her eyes upon me luminous with her old passion--the color hot in her cheeks, and her attitude full of that fiery pride which became her so infinitely well. "_I_ changed!--_I_ grown cold to him! I love him more than all the world, and shall do to my grave. Do you think that any who heard him last night could glory in him as I did? Did you think any physical torture would not have been easier to bear than what I felt when I saw his face once more, and thought of what we _should have been_ to one another, and of what we _are_? We women have to act, and smile, and wear a calm semblance, while our hearts are bursting; and so you fancy that we never feel." "But, great Heavens! Beatrice, if you love Earlscourt like this, why not give me leave to tell him? Why not write to him y
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