FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   236   237   238   239   240   241   242   243   244   245   246   247   248   249   250   251   252   >>  
"Of course I care," she assented. "Well, to begin with, I'm no better than I have been; a little less despicable than you've been thinking me, perhaps, but more wicked. I've hated these two men ever since I was old enough to know how; and to get square with them, I haven't scrupled to sink to their level. The smash at Gordonia is my smash, I'm responsible for everything that has happened." "I know it," she said. "Mr. Norman has told me." "Looking it all over, I don't see that there is much to choose between me and the men I've been hunting down. They went after the things they needed, without much compunction for other people; and so did I. On the night of the--on the night when you called to me and I wouldn't answer, I was going down to rub it in; to tell them they were in the hole and that I had put them there. I met a man at the gate who told me what Japheth told you. It made a devil of me, Ardea. I took the man's gun and followed Vincent around the yard. I meant to kill him." She nodded complete intelligence. "The provocation was very great," she said evenly. "Why didn't you do it, Tom?" "Now you've cornered me: I don't know why I didn't. I had only to walk away and let him alone when the time came. The slag-spilling would have settled him. But I couldn't do it." "Of course you couldn't," she agreed convincingly. "God wouldn't let you." "He lets other men commit murder; one a day, or such a matter." "Not one of those who have named His name, Tom--as you have." He shook his head slowly. "I wish that appealed to me, as it ought. But it doesn't. Where is the proof?" She rose from the piano seat and went to stand before him. "Can you ask that, soberly and in earnest, after the wonderful experience you have had?" "I have asked it," he insisted stubbornly. "You mustn't take anything for granted. Just at that moment I couldn't kill a man; but that is all the difference. I've done what I meant to do, or most of it." She was holding him steadily with her eyes. "Are you glad, or sorry, Tom?" He frowned up at her. "I don't know. Now that it's all over, the taste of it is like sawdust in the mouth; I'll admit that much. I'm free; 'free among the dead, like the slain that lie in the grave,' as David put it when he had sounded all the depths. Is that being sorry?" "No--I don't know," she confessed. He was smiling now. "You think I ought to go back to first principles: get down on my
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   236   237   238   239   240   241   242   243   244   245   246   247   248   249   250   251   252   >>  



Top keywords:

couldn

 

wouldn

 

sawdust

 
slowly
 

appealed

 
commit
 

murder

 

principles

 

matter

 

granted


depths

 

stubbornly

 

moment

 

steadily

 

holding

 
difference
 

convincingly

 

insisted

 
confessed
 

frowned


soberly

 

smiling

 

sounded

 

earnest

 

wonderful

 

experience

 

Vincent

 
responsible
 

happened

 

Gordonia


scrupled
 

Norman

 
Looking
 

things

 

needed

 

compunction

 
hunting
 

choose

 

square

 

despicable


assented

 

thinking

 

wicked

 

people

 
evenly
 

cornered

 

provocation

 
nodded
 

complete

 

intelligence