ing almost
of jealous envy stole into his heart toward the two disciples of the
Baptist, who, hearing the witness, followed Jesus. His hungry soul
echoed their "Where dwellest Thou?" in the mystical sense in which he
instinctively read it, and he felt it would be joy indeed to hear that
One say, "Come and see." Would he not come, indeed, if he were bidden!
Hubert read until the breakfast bell sounded, and then went down to
pursue his study in Winifred's bright face, and wonder how much she
really knew of the matter he was trying to search out.
"Winnie," he said to her after breakfast, "do you still think you have
begun to know God?"
"Yes," she said placidly, "I am sure of it."
"How do you know?" said he. "How does He manifest Himself?"
"I don't know," she answered. "I can't explain it, but He seems very
real."
"How did you find Him? What did you do?" he questioned further.
"Oh, I just came to Him," she answered. "And," as she reflected of
that night's compact, "I gave myself up to Him."
So that was the way Winifred found Him. Was that the way to "believe"?
But Winifred had none of his doubts about God. She believed that He
was, and the mental assent led to the heart surrender. But if he
should _do_ her act of faith--? If a man with doubts should give
himself up would he be received? With such reflections Hubert went out
into his day's work.
Again he accomplished the day's business with faithfulness to all
details, but with the consciousness every hour of a perplexity
unsolved--a burden unlifted. Again he was glad when the office door
closed behind him and he turned his face homeward, striding beneath his
umbrella through the now settled rain, with the Greek Testament grasped
in his hand.
An attractive wood fire burned in the drawing-room grate that evening,
but Hubert resisted its invitation and retired to his "scientific den,"
as Winifred called it, to pursue his new studies. He set himself to
read again in the Greek that which he had read in English. He was
struck by the fact that the word translated "believe" was also rendered
"commit" in a passage in the second chapter. That seemed somewhat more
practical to his apprehension.
He lingered long on the interview with Nicodemus, and as the rain beat
upon the roof and window pane he listened to the words uttered on a
Judean night, so long ago, to a man who like himself sought the truth.
In the first chapter of the Gospel, in its in
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