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m, and who had never even sent a work to the Academy--never even tried to enter. Their work was not of an ambitious order, but it was well paid. Amaryllis did not for a moment anticipate success as an artist, nor think to take the world by storm with her talent. Her one only hope was to get a few pounds now and then--she would have sold twenty sketches for ten shillings--to save her father from insult, and to give her mother the mere necessities of dress she needed. No thought of possible triumph, nor was she sustained by an overmastering love of art; she was inspired by her heart, not her genius. Had circumstances been different she would not have earnestly practised drawing; naturally she was a passive rather than an active artist. She loved beauty for its own sake--she loved the sunlight, the grass and trees, the gleaming water, the colours of the fields and of the sky. To listen to the running water was to her a dear delight, to the wind in the high firs, or caught in the wide-stretching arms of the oak; she rested among these things, they were to her mind as sleep to the body. The few good pictures she had seen pleased her, but did not rouse the emotion the sunlight caused; artificial music was enjoyable, but not like the running stream. It said nothing--the stream was full of thought. No eager desire to paint like that or play like that was awakened by pictures or music; Amaryllis was a passive and not an active artist by nature. And I think that is the better part; at least, I know it is a thousand times more pleasure to me to see a beautiful thing than to write about it. Could I choose I would go on seeing beautiful things, and not writing. Amaryllis had no ambition whatever for name or fame; to be silent in the sunshine was enough for her. By chance she had inherited the Flamma talent--she drew at once without effort or consideration; it was not so much to her as it is to me to write a letter. The thought to make use of her power did not occur to her until the preceding Christmas. Roast beef and plum pudding were a bitter mockery at Coombe Oaks--a sham and cold delusion, cold as snow. A "merry Christmas"--holly berries, mistletoe--and behind these--debt. Behind the glowing fire, written in the flames--debt; in the sound of the distant chimes--debt. Now be merry over the plum-pudding while the wolves gnash their teeth, wolves that the strongest bars cannot keep out. Immediately the sacred day w
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