e I would.--He
added that he had always pray'd for me and hop'd I should be kept unto
the end. My master left me by his will ten pounds, and my freedom.

I found that if he had lived 'twas his intention to take me with him to
Holland, as he had often mention'd me to some friends of his there that
were desirous to see me; but I chose to continue with my Mistress who
was as good to me as if she had been my mother.

The loss of Mr. Freelandhouse distress'd me greatly, but I was render'd
still more unhappy by the clouded and perplex'd situation of my mind;
the great enemy of my soul being ready to torment me, would present my
own misery to me in such striking light, and distress me with doubts,
fears, and such a deep sense of my own unworthiness, that after all the
comfort and encouragement I had received, I was often tempted to believe
I should be a Cast-away at last.--The more I saw of the Beauty and Glory
of God, the more I was humbled under a sense of my own vileness. I
often repair'd to my old place of prayer; I seldom came away without
consolation. One day this Scripture was wonderfully apply'd to my mind,
_"And ye are compleat in Him which is the Head of all principalities and
power."_--The Lord was pleas'd to comfort me by the application of many
gracious promises at times when I was ready to sink under my troubles.
_"Wherefore He is able also to save them to the uttermost that come unto
God by Him seeing He ever liveth to make intercession for them._ Hebrews
x. ver. 14. _For by one offering He hath perfected for ever them that
are sanctified."_

My kind, indulgent Mistress liv'd but two years after my Master. Her
death was a great affliction to me. She left five sons, all gracious
young men, and Ministers of the Gospel.--I continued with them all, one
after another, till they died; they liv'd but four years after their
parents. When it pleased God to take them to Himself, I was left quite
destitute, without a friend in the world. But I who had so often
experienced the Goodness of GOD, trusted in Him to do what He pleased
with me.--In this helpless condition I went in the wood to prayer as
usual; and tho' the snow was a considerable height, I was not sensible
of cold, or any other inconveniency.--At times indeed when I saw the
world frowning round me, I was tempted to think that the LORD had
forsaken me. I found great relief from the contemplation of these words
in Isaiah xlix. v. 16. _"Behold I have graven thee o