all I could come to say, with some distress in doing it.
"Mistress Lorna, I had hope that you were in need of me."
"Oh, yes; but that was long ago; two months ago, or more, sir." And
saying this she looked away, as if it all were over. But I was now
so dazed and frightened, that it took my breath away, and I could not
answer, feeling sure that I was robbed and some one else had won her.
And I tried to turn away, without another word, and go.
But I could not help one stupid sob, though mad with myself for allowing
it, but it came too sharp for pride to stay it, and it told a world
of things. Lorna heard it, and ran to me, with her bright eyes full of
wonder, pity, and great kindness, as if amazed that I had more than a
simple liking for her. Then she held out both hands to me; and I took
and looked at them.
"Master Ridd, I did not mean," she whispered, very softly, "I did not
mean to vex you."
"If you would be loath to vex me, none else in this world can do it," I
answered out of my great love, but fearing yet to look at her, mine eyes
not being strong enough.
"Come away from this bright place," she answered, trembling in her turn;
"I am watched and spied of late. Come beneath the shadows, John."
I would have leaped into the valley of the shadow of death (as described
by the late John Bunyan), only to hear her call me "John"; though
Apollyon were lurking there, and Despair should lock me in.
She stole across the silent grass; but I strode hotly after her; fear
was all beyond me now, except the fear of losing her. I could not but
behold her manner, as she went before me, all her grace, and lovely
sweetness, and her sense of what she was.
She led me to her own rich bower, which I told of once before; and if
in spring it were a sight, what was it in summer glory? But although my
mind had notice of its fairness and its wonder, not a heed my heart took
of it, neither dwelt it in my presence more than flowing water. All
that in my presence dwelt, all that in my heart was felt, was the maiden
moving gently, and afraid to look at me.
For now the power of my love was abiding on her, new to her, unknown to
her; not a thing to speak about, nor even to think clearly; only just to
feel and wonder, with a pain of sweetness. She could look at me no more,
neither could she look away, with a studied manner--only to let fall her
eyes, and blush, and be put out with me, and still more with herself.
I left her quite a
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