FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   48   49   50   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72  
73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   >>   >|  
produced the illusion, not merely in Hilda but in herself also, that her pleasure in this very astonishing encounter was quite peculiarly poignant. They shook hands, as women of the world. "Did you know I was here?" Hilda questioned, characteristically on her guard, with a nervous girlish movement of the leg that perhaps sinned against the code of authentic worldliness. "No indeed!" exclaimed Janet. "Well, I am! I'm engaged here." "How splendid of you!" said Janet enthusiastically, with no suggestion whatever in her tone that Hilda's situation was odd, or of dubious propriety, or aught but enviable. But Hilda surveyed her with secret envy, transient yet real. In the half-dozen years that had passed since the days of the dancing-class, Janet had matured. She was now the finished product. She had the charm of her sex, and she depended on it. She had grace and an overflowing goodness. She had a smooth ease of manner. She was dignified. And, with her furs, and her expensive veil protecting those bright apple-red cheeks, and all the studied minor details of her costume, she was admirably and luxuriously attired. She was the usual, as distinguished from the unusual, woman, brought to perfection. She represented no revolt against established custom. Doubts and longings did not beset her. She was content within her sphere: a destined queen of the home. And yet she could not be accused of being old-fashioned. None would dare to despise her. She was what Hilda could never be, had never long desired to be. She was what Hilda had definitely renounced being. And there stood Hilda, immature, graceless, harsh, inelegant, dowdy, holding the letter between her inky fingers, in the midst of all that hard masculine mess,--and a part of it, the blindly devoted subaltern, who could expect none of the ritual of homage given to women, who must sit and work and stand and strain and say 'yes,' and pretend stiffly that she was a sound, serviceable, thick-skinned imitation man among men! If Hilda had been a valkyrie or a saint she might have felt no envy and no pang. But she was a woman. Self-pity shot through her tremendous pride; and the lancinating stab made her inattentive even to her curiosity concerning the purpose of Janet's visit. III "I came to see Mr. Cannon," said Janet. "The housekeeper downstairs told me he was here somewhere." "He's engaged," answered Hilda in a low voice, with the devotee's instinct to surrou
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   48   49   50   51   52   53   54   55   56   57   58   59   60   61   62   63   64   65   66   67   68   69   70   71   72  
73   74   75   76   77   78   79   80   81   82   83   84   85   86   87   88   89   90   91   92   93   94   95   96   97   >>   >|  



Top keywords:
engaged
 

homage

 
masculine
 

subaltern

 
devoted
 
blindly
 
expect
 

ritual

 

renounced

 

fashioned


despise

 

accused

 

sphere

 

destined

 

desired

 

holding

 

letter

 

inelegant

 

immature

 

graceless


fingers

 

imitation

 

Cannon

 

purpose

 
inattentive
 
curiosity
 

housekeeper

 

devotee

 

instinct

 

surrou


answered

 
downstairs
 
lancinating
 

serviceable

 

skinned

 

content

 

stiffly

 

strain

 

pretend

 
tremendous

valkyrie
 
costume
 

splendid

 

exclaimed

 
sinned
 

authentic

 

worldliness

 

enthusiastically

 

suggestion

 
enviable