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o a sitting position. His shaking hand reached out eagerly and his expectant lips quivered. He gulped the whiskey down. "Thank you," he said, gazing longingly at the bottle as he held the empty glass toward her. "More?" "I _would_ like a little more," said he gratefully. Again she poured him a large drink, and again he gulped it down. "That's strong stuff," said he. "But then they sell strong stuff in this part of town. The other kind tastes weak to me now." He dropped back against the pillows. She poured herself a drink. Halfway to her lips the glass halted. "I've got to stop that," thought she, "if I'm going to do anything for him or for myself." And she poured the whiskey back and put the bottle away. The whole incident took less than five seconds. It did not occur that she was essaying and achieving the heroic, that she had in that instant revealed her right to her dream of a career high above the common lot. "Don't _you_ drink?" said he. "I've decided to cut it out," replied she carelessly. "There's nothing in it." "I couldn't live without it--and wouldn't." "It _is_ a comfort when one's on the way down," said she. "But I'm going to try the other direction--for a change." She held a box of cigarettes toward him. He took one, then she; she held the lighted match for him, lit her own cigarette, let the flame of the match burn on, she absently watching it. "Look out! You'll burn yourself!" cried he. She started, threw the match into the slop jar. "How do you feel?" inquired she. "Like the devil," he answered. "But then I haven't known what it was to feel any other way for several months except when I couldn't feel at all." A long silence, both smoking, he thinking, she furtively watching him. "You haven't changed so much," he finally said. "At least, not on the outside." "More on the outside than on the inside," said she. "The inside doesn't change much. There I'm almost as I was that day on the big rock. And I guess you are, too--aren't you?" "The devil I am! I've grown hard and bitter." "That's all outside," declared she. "That's the shell--like the scab that stays over the sore spot till it heals." "Sore spot? I'm nothing but sore spots. I've been treated like a dog." And he proceeded to talk about the only subject that interested him--himself. He spoke in a defensive way, as if replying to something she had said or thought. "I've not got down
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