& greater rout and resistance
than a true one. From thence he descended to my breasts, the feel I
disputed tooth and nail with him till tired with my resistance, and
thinking probable to give a better account to me, he hurried his clothes
off in an instant, and came into bed.
Mean while by the glimpse I stole of him, I could easily discover a
person far from promising any such doughty performances as the storming
of maidenheads generally requires, and whose flimsy consumptive
texture gave him more the air of an invalid that was pressed, than of a
volunteer, on such hot service.
At scarce thirty he had already reduced his strength of appetite down
to a wretched dependance on forced provocatives, very little seconded
by the natural power of a body jaded, and racked off to the less by
constant repeated over draughts of pleasure, which had done the work of
sixty winters on his springs of live: leaving him at the same time all
the fire and head of youth in his imagination, which served at once to
torment and spur him down the precipice.
As soon as he was in bed, he threw off the bedclothes, which I suffered
him to force from my hold, and I now lay as exposed as he could wish,
not only to his attacks, but his visitation of the sheets; where in the
various agitations of the body, through my endeavours to defend myself,
he could easily assure himself there was no preparation, though, to do
him justice, he seemed a less strict examinant than I had apprehended
from so experienced a practitioner. My shift then he fairly tore open,
finding I made too much use of it to barricade my breasts, as well as
the more important avenue: yet in every thing else he proceeded with all
the marks of tenderness and regard to me, whilst the art of my play was
to shew none for him, I acted them all the niceties, apprehensions, and
terrors, supposable for a girl perfectly innocent to feel, at so great
a novelty as a naked man in bed with her for the first time. He scarce
even obtained a kiss but what he ravished; I put his hand away twenty
times from my breasts, where he had satisfied himself of their hardness
and consistence, with passing for hitherto unhandled goods. But when
grown impatient upon the main point, he now threw himself upon me,
and first trying to examine me with his finger, sought to make himself
further way, I complained of his usage bitterly: "I thought he would
not have served a body so... I was ruined... I did not know what
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