not true. We fancy, in our hours of
indolence, that we must wait for inspiration; but once force ourselves
to work, and ideas spring forth at the wave of the pen. You may believe
me here, I speak from experience: I, compelled to work, and in modes not
to my taste--I do my task I know not how. I rub the lamp, 'the genius
comes.'"
"I have read in some English author that motive power is necessary to
continued labour: you have motive power, I have none."
"I do not quite understand you."
"I mean that a strong ruling motive is required to persist in any
regular course of action that needs effort: the motive with the majority
of men is the need of subsistence; with a large number (as in trades or
professions), not actually want, but a desire of gain, and perhaps of
distinction, in their calling: the desire of professional distinction
expands into the longings for more comprehensive fame, more exalted
honours, with the few who become great writers, soldiers, statesmen,
orators."
"And do you mean to say you have no such motive?"
"None in the sting of want, none in the desire of gain."
"But fame?"
"Alas! I thought so once. I know not now--I begin to doubt if fame
should be sought by women." This was said very dejectedly.
"Tut, dearest Signorina! what gadfly has stung you? Your doubt is a
weakness unworthy of your intellect; and even were it not, genius is
destiny and will be obeyed: you must write, despite yourself--and your
writing must bring fame, whether you wish it or not."
Isaura was silent, her head drooped on her breast--there were tears in
her downcast eyes.
Rameau took her hand, which she yielded to him passively, and clasping
it in both his own, he rushed on impulsively--
"Oh, I know what these misgivings are when we feel ourselves solitary,
unloved: how often have they been mine! But how different would labour
be if shared and sympathised with by a congenial mind, by a heart that
beats in unison with one's own!"
Isaura's breast heaved beneath her robe, she sighed softly.
"And then how sweet the fame of which the one we love is proud! how
trifling becomes the pang of some malignant depreciation, which a word
from the beloved one can soothe! O Signorina! O Isaura! are we not made
for each other? Kindred pursuits, hopes, and fears in common; the same
race to run, the same goal to win! I need a motive stronger than I have
yet known for the persevering energy that insures success: supply to me
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