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was still some thousands of miles away--in Canada--safely dead and buried, as far as Rachel was concerned? On the whole, he thought it most probable that Rachel had held her tongue about his reappearance. If she had thought it worth while to bribe him so heavily, it was not very likely that she would now herself have set the American on the track of a secret which she so evidently did not want an expectant bridegroom to know. The American--d--n him! A furious and morbid jealousy rushed upon the man crouching under the cart-shed. The world was rapidly reducing itself for him to these two figures--figures of hate--figures against whom he felt himself driven by a kind of headlong force, a force of destruction. How still the farm was, except for the movements of the cows inside the shippen at his back, or of the horses in the stable! Rachel, no doubt, was now asleep. In the old days he had often--enviously--watched her tumble asleep as soon as her bright head was on the pillow; while in his own case sleep had been for years a difficult business. Somebody else would watch her sleeping now. Yes, if he, the outcast, allowed it. And again the frenzied sense of power swept through him. _If he allowed it_! It rested with him. The following day, Ellesborough set out in the early afternoon for Great End Farm, the bearer of much news. The day was dark and rainy, with almost a gale blowing, but his spirits had never been higher. The exultation of the great victory, the incredible Victory, seemed to breathe upon him from the gusty wind, to be driving the westerly clouds, and crying in all the noises of the woods. Was it really over?--over and done?--the agony of these four years--the hourly sacrifice of irreplaceable life--the racking doubt as to the end--the torturing question in every conscious mind--"Is there a God in Heaven--a God who cares for men--or is there not?" He could have shouted the answer aloud--"There is--there is a God! And He is just." Faith was natural to him, and nourished on his new happiness no less than on the marvellous issue of the war, it set his heart singing on this dull winter's day. How should he find her? Threshing, perhaps, in the big barn, and he would turn to, and work with her and the girls till work was done, and they could have the sitting-room to themselves, and he could tell her all his news. Janet--the ever-kind and thoughtful Janet--would see to that. The more he saw of the f
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