with restless, loving pinions, longing to shadow, caress,
and heal her!
Coventry, with Henry Little's letter in his hand, peered through the
leaves, and saw the woman he loved fix this look of despair upon the
sea--despair of which he was the sole cause, and could dispel it with a
gesture.
"And this brings me back to what is my only great trouble now. I told
you, in the letter I left behind me, you would hear from me in a month
at furthest. It will be not a month, but eleven weeks. Good heavens!
when I think what anxiety you may have suffered on my account! You know
I am a pupil of the good doctor, and so I put myself in your place,
and I say to myself, 'If my Grace had promised to write in a month, and
eleven weeks had passed without a word, what would my feelings be?' Why,
I think I should go mad; I should make sure you were ill; I should fear
you were dead; I should fancy every terrible thing on earth, except that
you were false to your poor Henry. That I should never fear: I judge you
by myself. Fly, steamboat, with this letter to my love, and set her mind
at ease. Fly back with a precious word from her dear hand, and with that
in my bosom, nothing will ever daunt me.
"God bless you! angel of my life, darling of my heart, star on which all
my hopes are fixed! Oh, what miserable bad tools words are! When I look
at them, and compare them with how I love you, I seem to be writing
that I love you no more than other people love. What I feel is so much
greater than words.
"Must I say farewell? Even on paper, it is like tearing myself away from
heaven again. But that was to be: and now this is to be. Good-by, my own
beloved.
"Yours till death, HENRY."
Coventry read this sentence by sentence, still looking up, nearly every
sentence, at her to whom it was addressed.
The letter pleaded on his knee, the pale face pleaded a few yards off;
he sat between the two bleeding lovers, their sole barrier and bane.
His heart began to fail him. The mountain of crime looked high. Now
remorse stung him deeper than ever; jealousy spurred him harder than
ever; a storm arose within his breast, a tempest of conflicting passion,
as grand and wild as ever distracted the heart; as grand and wild as
any poet has ever tried to describe, and, half succeeding, won immortal
fame.
"See what I can do?" whispered conscience. "With one bound I can give
her the letter, and bring the color back to that cheek and joy to that
heart. S
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