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o go to Anne; but he was too deeply stupefied to wonder why she would not see him. Later they met. He knew by his first glance at her face that he must not speak to her of the dead child. He could understand that. He was even glad of it. In this she was like him, that deep feeling left her dumb. And yet, there was a difference. It was that he could not speak, and she, he felt, would not. There were things that had to be done. He did them all, sparing her as much as possible. Once or twice she had to be consulted. She gave him a fact, or an opinion, in a brief methodic manner that set him at a distance from her sacred sorrow. She had betrayed more emotion in speaking to Dr. Gardner. But for these things they went through their first day in silence, like people who respect each other's grief too profoundly for any speech. In the evening they sat together in the drawing-room. There was nothing more to do. Then he spoke. He asked to see Peggy. His voice was so low that she did not hear him. "What did you say, Walter?" He had to say it again. "Where is she? Can I see her?" His voice was still low, and it was thick and uncertain, but this time she understood. "In Edie's room," she said. "Nanna has the key." She did not go with him. When he came back to her she was still cold and torpid. He could understand that her grief had frozen her. At night she parted from him without a word. So the days went on. Sometimes he would sit in the study by himself for a little while. His racked nerves were soothed by solitude. Then he would think of the woman upstairs in the drawing-room, sitting alone. And he would go to her. She did not send him away. She did not leave him. She did nothing. She said nothing. He began to be afraid. It would do her good, he said to himself, if she could cry. He wondered whether it was wise to leave her to her terrible torpor; whether he ought to speak to her. But he could not. Yet she was kind to him for all her coldness. Once, when his grief was heaviest upon him, he thought she looked at him with anxiety, with pity. She came to him once, where he sat downstairs, alone. But though she came to him, she still kept him from her. And she would not go with him into the room where Peggy lay. Now and then he wondered if she knew. He was not certain. He put the thought away from him. He was sure that for nearly three years she had not known anything. She had not known anythi
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