ake him happy, that will be your best plan, Rosalind.
If I were in your place, I'd try to forget about the past, and think
only of the future. I'd find out the very best in him, and be proud of
it, and study his tastes, so that I might be able to talk about the
things he liked best, and be a real companion to him, and I'd be
grateful to him for his love, and try to love him in return. Every one
says he is a good fellow and devoted to you, so it ought not to be
difficult."
"No-o!" echoed Rosalind doubtfully. "Only if you are going to love
people, you genewally do it without twying, and if you don't love them,
little things aggwavate you, and rub you the wong way, which you would
never notice in people you really cared for! Everscourt is a good
fellow, but he worries me to distwaction sometimes, and I am so afraid
of getting cwoss. I don't want him to think me bad-tempered. I think
your plan is very good, Peggy, and I will try to follow it. I ought to
succeed, for you see how anxious I am to do what is right! You can't
call me selfish this time, can you, for I am thinking only of his
happiness!"
Peggy lifted her brows with arch reproach. "Oh, Rosalind, no! You
think you are, but you are really distressed about your own position, in
case he may ever think you any less charming and angelic than he does at
this moment. It's your own vanity that concerns you, far more than his
happiness."
"You have no business to say anything of the kind. If he is
disappointed in me, won't that make him miserable, and if I twy to
please him, is not that making him happy in the best way possible? But
you always think the worst of me, Peggy Saville, and put a wong
constwuction on what I do. When I pay you the compliment of coming to
you for help, I do think you might be a little kinder and more
sympathetic."
"It would be easier to say a lot of polite things that I didn't wean.
It is the best proof that I do care for your happiness that I have the
courage to be disagreeable. You know, Rosalind, the plain truth is that
you want to act a part to gain admiration and applause, but it's absurd
to think you can go on doing that all your life, and to a person who is
with you on every occasion. It must be _real_, not pretence, if it is
to succeed, so try not to think so much about his opinion of you, and
more about how you can help him, and be the sort of wife he wants. And
if he worries you in any little way, tell him so quiet
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