g as far as the window would let
her; "but you are mistaken. If this power be in me, which I cannot
quite believe--yes, I see what you want to say, but if I did what I
know to be wrong, I should lose it at once; God's grace can save you
without me."
"I will not ask you to do what you call wrong; no, nor to transgress
any of the ties you respect, you, whose home is so unlike mine; only
tell me that I may have hope, that if I deserve you, I may win you;
that you could grant me--wretched me--a share of your affection."
This was hardest of all; mingled pity and repugnance, truth and
compassion strove within the maiden as well as the strange influence
of those extraordinary eyes. She was almost as much afraid of
herself as of her suitor. At last she managed to say, "I am very
sorry for you; I grieve from my heart for your troubles; I should be
very glad to hear of your welfare and anything good of you, but--"
"But, but--I see--it is mere frenzy in me to think the blighted elf
can aspire to be aught but loathsome to any lady--only, at least,
tell me you love no one else."
"No, certainly not," she said, as if his eyes drew it forcibly from
her.
"Then you cannot hinder me from making you my guiding star--hoping
that if yet I can--"
"There's my uncle!" exclaimed Anne, in a tone of infinite relief.
"Stand up, Mr. Oakshott, compose yourself. Of course I cannot
hinder your thinking about me, if it will do you any good, but there
are better things to think about which would conquer evil and make
you happy more effectually."
He snatched her hand and kissed it, nor did she withhold it, since
she really pitied him, and knew that her uncle was near, and all
would soon be over.
Peregrine dashed away by another door as Dr. Woodford's foot was on
the stairs. "I have ordered the horses," he began. "They told me
young Oakshott was here."
"He was, but he is gone;" and she could not quite conceal her
agitation.
"Crimson cheeks, my young mistress? Ah, the foolish fellow! You do
not care for him, I trust?"
"No, indeed, poor fellow. What, did you know, sir?"
"Know. Yes, truly--and your mother likewise, Anne. It was one
cause of her wishing to send you to safer keeping than mine seems to
be. My young spark made his proposals to us both, though we would
not disturb your mind therewith, not knowing how he would have dealt
with his father, nor viewing him, for all he is heir to Oakwood, as
a desirable match i
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