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ull of awe. Of the choral hymns there sung, the hierophantic ritual, liturgies, paeans, the gorgeous symbolisms--of the wealth there represented, the culture, art, self-sacrifice--of the mingling of all the tongues of Europe--I shall not speak; nor shall I repeat names which you would at once recognise as familiar to you--though I may, perhaps, mention that the "Morris," whose name appears on the papyrus sent to me is a well-known _litterateur_ of that name. But this in confidence, for some years at least. 'Let me, however, hurry to a conclusion. My turn came to speak. I rose undaunted, and calmly disclosed myself; during the moment of hush, of wide-eyed paralysis that ensued, I declared that fully as I coincided with their views in general, I found myself unable to regard their methods with approval--these I could not but consider too rash, too harsh, too premature. My voice was suddenly drowned by one universal, earth-shaking roar of rage and contempt, during which I was surrounded on all sides, seized, pinioned, and dashed on the central table. All this time, in the hope and love of life, I passionately shouted that I was not the only living being who shared in their secret. But my voice was drowned, and drowned again, in the whirling tumult. None heard me. A powerful and little-known anaesthetic--the means by which all their murders have been accomplished--was now produced. A cloth, saturated with the fluid, was placed on my mouth and nostrils. I was stifled. Sense failed. The incubus of the universe blackened down upon my brain. How I tugged at the mandrakes of speech! was a locked pugilist with language! In the depth of my extremity the half-thought, I remember, floated, like a mist, through my fading consciousness, that now perhaps--now--there was silence around me; that _now,_ could my palsied lips find dialect, I should be heard, and understood. My whole soul rose focussed to the effort--my body jerked itself upwards. At that moment I knew my spirit truly great, genuinely sublime. For I _did_ utter something--my dead and shuddering tongue _did_ babble forth some coherency. Then I fell back, and all was once more the ancient Dark. On the next day when I woke, I was lying on my back in my little boat, placed there by God knows whose hands. At all events, one thing was clear--I _had_ uttered something--I was saved. With what of strength remained to me I reached the place where I had left your _caleche_, and start
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