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ady to pull himself together and show the world that it was indulging too soon in its hypocritical headshakings over his ruin. "I am going to open an office of my own at once," he said to his sister. She did not wish to discourage him, but she could not altogether keep her thoughts from her face. She had, in a general way, a clear idea of the complete system of tollgates, duly equipped with strong barriers, which the mighty few have established across practically all the highroads to material success. Also, she felt in her brother's manner and tone a certain profound discouragement, a lack of the unconquerable spirit which had carried him so far so speedily. It is not a baseless notion that the man who has never been beaten is often destroyed by his first reverse. Ursula feared the spell of success had been broken for him. "You mean," she suggested, with apparent carelessness, "that you will give up your forty thousand a year?" He made a disdainful gesture. "I can make more than that," said he. "It's a second rate lawyer who can't in this day." "Of course you can," replied she tactfully. "But why not take a rest first? Then there's old Burroughs--on the war path. Wouldn't it be wise to wait till he calms down?" "If Burroughs or any other man is necessary to me," rejoined Fred, "the sooner I find it out the better. I ought to know just where I--I myself--stand." "No one is necessary to you but yourself," said Ursula, proudly and sincerely. "But, Fred--Are you yourself just now?" "No, I'm not," admitted he. "But the way to become so again isn't by waiting but by working." An expression of sheer wretchedness came into his listless, heavy eyes. "Urse, I've got to conquer my weakness now, or go under." She was eager to hold on to the secure forty thousand a year--for his sake no less than for her own. She argued with him with all the adroitness of a mind as good in its way as his own. But she could not shake his resolution. And she in prudence, desisted when he said bitterly: "I see you've lost confidence in me. Well, I don't blame you. . . . So have I." Then after a moment, violently rather than strongly: "But I've got to get it back. If I don't I'm only putting off the smash--a complete smash." "I don't see quite how it's to be arranged," said she, red and hesitating. For, she feared he would think her altogether selfish in her anxiety. He certainly would have been justified in so thinking; he knew
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