FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   162   163  
164   165   166   167   168   169   170   171   172   173   174   175   176   177   178   179   180   181   182   183   184   185   186   187   188   >>   >|  
s to me, Miss Trevannion, I could do no less than accept the offer." "You would have been more wise and more just to yourself to have refused it, Mr Musgrave. I read the letters to my father when they arrived, and you know what Captain Irving says about the unhealthiness of the climate. You have been my father's best friend, and he should not have treated you thus." "I never did value life, Miss Trevannion; but really the kind interest you have expressed on this occasion makes me feel as if my poor life was of some value. To one who has been such a football of fortune as I have been, and who has hardly known a kind feeling towards him ever expressed, it is a gratification that I really appreciate, and, coming from one whom I respect and esteem more than any other person in the world, it quite overpowers me. Indeed, Miss Trevannion, I am truly grateful." I was correct when I said that it overpowered me, for it did completely, and I was so oppressed by my feelings, that I reeled to a chair, and covered up my face with my hands. What would I have given to have dared to state what I felt! "You are ill, Mr Musgrave," said Miss Trevannion, coming to me. "Can I offer you anything?" I made no reply; I could not speak. "Mr Musgrave," said Miss Trevannion, taking my hand, "you frighten me. What is the matter? Shall I call Humphrey?" I felt her hand tremble in mine, and, uncertain what to think, I came to the resolution to make the avowal. "Miss Trevannion," said I, after a pause, and rising from my chair, "I feel that this internal conflict is too great for me, and if it last it must kill me. I give you my honour that I have for months tried everything in my power to curb my desires and to persuade myself of my folly and rash ambition, but I cannot do so any longer. It were better that I knew my fate at once, even if my sentence should be my death. You will ridicule my folly, be surprised at my presumption, and, in all probability, spurn me for the avowal, but make it I must. Miss Trevannion, I have dared--to love you; I have but one excuse to offer, which is, that I have been more than a year in your company, and it is impossible for any one not to love one so pure, so beautiful, and so good. I would have postponed this avowal till I was able to resume my position in society, by the means which industry might have afforded me; but my departure upon this business, and the kind of presentiment which I
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147   148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   162   163  
164   165   166   167   168   169   170   171   172   173   174   175   176   177   178   179   180   181   182   183   184   185   186   187   188   >>   >|  



Top keywords:
Trevannion
 

avowal

 

Musgrave

 
expressed
 

coming

 

father

 

desires

 

months

 

persuade

 

resolution


uncertain

 
Humphrey
 

tremble

 
rising
 
internal
 

conflict

 

honour

 

presumption

 

postponed

 

resume


beautiful

 

company

 

impossible

 

position

 

society

 
business
 

presentiment

 

departure

 

afforded

 

industry


longer

 

sentence

 
probability
 

excuse

 

ridicule

 

surprised

 

ambition

 

overpowered

 

occasion

 

interest


treated
 
feeling
 

fortune

 

football

 

friend

 
refused
 

letters

 
accept
 
arrived
 

unhealthiness