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strange passion. Fear was its dominant motive, Jerry's innocence its inspiration. If he had crushed the breath from her body, I think she would have died rapturously. But Jerry, it seems, tore himself from her and moved some distance away, I think, his head bent into the hollow of his arm, torn between his emotions. I would have given all that I possessed on earth to have caught a glimpse of her face at that moment. Flushed with victory of course--but passion--Bah! I couldn't believe her capable of it. If she had been wholly animal I might have forgiven her everything. But the impression had grown in me with the minutes that all this like everything else she did was false--false penitence, false contrition, false tears, false love and now false passion. She was a mere shell, a beautiful shell in which one hears the faint murmurs of sweet music, echoes of sounds which might have been but were not. These were the sounds that Jerry heard, echoes of some earlier incarnation in which spiritual beauty had been his fetich. And now, he stood apart, broken, miserable. "Jerry," I heard her call again softly, "I am not afraid." That was it. I understood now. What she loved was fear. But Jerry would not come back. I heard his voice faintly. "We must go, Marcia." "Why?" "I have learned; we have no right here--alone, you and I. It's what--what you accused Una of." "But you and I--Jerry! Am I not different from Una? I have rights. She has none. I've given them to you, and you to me." "You will marry me, soon?" "Not if you're going to be so--so--er--inhospitable." He came forward quickly. "You know I don't mean that. Would you have me less considerate of your reputation, your peace of mind, than I am of Una's? I want you to understand how deeply I respect you--that I want to treat you with tenderness, with delicacy, with gentle devotion." I heard her sigh. I'm sure if Jerry's back had been turned she must have yawned. She rose and I heard her slow footsteps join his. "How you disappoint me!" I heard her murmur and then more faintly: "How terribly you disappoint me! To analyze one's feelings! To think of conventions! Now! What _are_ you?" "Marcia!" I heard their voices fading into the distance and peered forth. They were walking slowly down the path, away from me. I stirred cautiously, straightened my stiffened legs, rose painfully, and then carefully made my way farther into the forest, through which I
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