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th interest. Susie led him to talk of himself, and he spoke willingly enough of his daily round. He was earning a good deal of money, and his professional reputation was making steady progress. He worked hard. Besides his duties at the two hospitals with which he was now connected, his teaching, and his private practice, he had read of late one or two papers before scientific bodies, and was editing a large work on surgery. 'How on earth can you find time to do so much?' asked Susie. 'I can do with less sleep than I used,' he answered. 'It almost doubles my working-day.' He stopped abruptly and looked down. His remark had given accidentally some hint at the inner life which he was striving to conceal. Susie knew that her suspicion was well-founded. She thought of the long hours he lay awake, trying in vain to drive from his mind the agony that tortured him, and the short intervals of troubled sleep. She knew that he delayed as long as possible the fatal moment of going to bed, and welcomed the first light of day, which gave him an excuse for getting up. And because he knew that he had divulged the truth he was embarrassed. They sat in awkward silence. To Susie, the tragic figure in front of her was singularly impressive amid that lighthearted throng: all about them happy persons were enjoying the good things of life, talking, laughing, and making merry. She wondered what refinement of self-torture had driven him to choose that place to come to. He must hate it. When they finished luncheon, Susie took her courage in both hands. 'Won't you come back to my rooms for half an hour? We can't talk here.' He made an instinctive motion of withdrawal, as though he sought to escape. He did not answer immediately, and she insisted. 'You have nothing to do for an hour, and there are many things I want to speak to you about' 'The only way to be strong is never to surrender to one's weakness,' he said, almost in a whisper, as though ashamed to talk so intimately. 'Then you won't come?' 'No.' It was not necessary to specify the matter which it was proposed to discuss. Arthur knew perfectly that Susie wished to talk of Margaret, and he was too straightforward to pretend otherwise. Susie paused for one moment. 'I was never able to give Margaret your message. She did not write to me.' A certain wildness came into his eyes, as if the effort he made was almost too much for him. 'I saw her in Monte Carlo,' sai
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