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sed ignorance. There was nothing for it but to go. He had lost both her and the dog. Up in her room Mary asked the dog: "Will you be mine? Will you go with me, little black John?" She clapped her hands to make him bark his joyful: Yes. The question of ownership was settled thus. A letter which came from Joergen, probably on this subject, she burned unread. She expected him to appear at the station, at the time when the train for Norway left, to claim his property. She drove boldly up with her dog at her side, washed, combed, perfumed. Joergen was not there. * * * * * Mary slept all night with the dog at her feet, on her travelling rug. But with morning came reflection. Now she was alone, alone with the responsibility. Hitherto she had been forcing herself into the one narrow way of escape--to marry Joergen at once, bear her child abroad, and after that--endure as long as she could. But to marry the man she loathed, merely in order to save her good name--how inconceivable such a step now seemed to her! She had tried to take it, because she knew what those around her thought on such subjects, and because she occupied a peculiar position; upon festal garments a stain was unendurable. But now she said "For shame!" at the thought of it--said it aloud. And the dog instantly looking up, she added: "Yes, John, it was 'to the dogs' I was going when I set off on this journey!" But what was she to do now? She knew what could be done. But two besides herself would be in that secret--Joergen and another. This in itself was prohibitive. She could never again hold up her head proudly and independently--and to be able to do so was a necessity to her. Well, what then? As long as her journey and what it entailed had seemed to her to be imperative, for honour's sake inevitable, the idea of the last, the very last refuge had not suggested itself seriously. Now it faced her in sad earnest! She looked mournfully into the dog's honest eyes, as if she were searching for a way of escape from this too. She read in them the most unmixed happiness and devotion. Burying her face in his curls, she wept. She was so young still, she did not want to die. For the first time she wept for herself, was sorry for herself. It did not seem to her that she had done anything to deserve this. Nor could she account to herself for the manner in which it had all come about. The dog understood that s
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