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nd actually humble to servility. "Oh, if I could but be sure of this,--if I could know that I could bury both my shame and my sorrow together!" In this vacillating state of suspense--one day all hope and confidence, the next, terror and dread--she lived on, till the period drew nigh for their departure from Vienna. Madame de Heidendorf had delayed beyond her intention, in the hope of receiving some French news; and Kate eagerly watched the post for some tidings from home,--for home it still was, in every feeling of her heart "No letters again, Nina?" said she, despondingly, as the maid entered the room. "None, Madame." "Have your friends forgotten you, Nina, as well as mine appear to have done?" "Nina has but few friends, Madame; and still fewer would think of writing to her!" "Poor Nina!" said Kate, affectionately; and the blood rushed to the girl's face at the words, and her eyes flashed with an expression of sudden passion. "No pity, Madame,----no pity!" cried she, with a voice full of emotion, "or I may forget myself,--forget myself and you also!" And with these words she hurried from the room, without waiting for more. Kate sat shocked and abashed by the girl's violence, and yet neither daring to reprove her nor even remonstrate with her. What abject slavery was this to feel! How mean did she seem to her own heart! What rottenness was within that gilded splendor by which she was surrounded! Where was the ambitious envy with which she once looked up to the rich and powerful now? Where that intense desire to be among the great and the titled? and with whom would she not have changed conditions, even to Nina herself? It is not weak of heart and low of courage that one should face the great journey of life. Its trials and crosses, even to the most fortunate, demand all that we can summon of hope and of energy. And yet so was it that she was about to begin the road--the long and dreary road--before her! As she sat thus musing, a great noise was heard from the street without. She arose and opened the window. The whole Platz was crammed with people, eagerly talking and gesticulating. A surging, waving motion, too, seemed to sway them, and at length she could detect that they were slowly proceeding onward towards the gate of the city. The deep roll of a drum then turned her attention, and, in the far distance, she saw the glancing bayonets of an infantry column as they advanced. Military spectacles ar
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