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eart said in a tremulous voice through the little brass grating: "Father, I am a great sinner--hear me, hear me!" The measured breathing inside the confessional was arrested, and the peaceful face of the priest looked out at the hectic cheeks and blazing eyes. "Wait, my daughter, do not agitate yourself. Say the Confiteor." She tried to speak, but her words were hardly audible or coherent. "I confess ... I confess ... I cannot, Father." A pinch of snuff dropped from the old man's fingers. "Are you not a Christian?" "I have not been baptized, but I was educated in a convent, and...." "Then I cannot hear your confession. Baptism is the door of the Church, and without it...." "But I am in great trouble. For Our Lady's sake, listen to me. Oh, listen to me, Father, only listen to me." Although accustomed to the sufferings of the human heart, a measureless pity came over the old priest, and he said in a kind and tender voice: "Go on, my daughter. I cannot give you absolution, for you are not a child of the Church; but I am an old man, and if I can help your poor soul to bear its burden, God forbid that I should turn you away." In a torrent of hot words Roma poured out her trouble, hiding nothing, extenuating nothing, and naming and blaming no one. At length the throbbing breath and quivering voice died down, and there was a moment's silence, in which the dull rumble in the church seemed to come from far away. Then the voice behind the grating said in tender tones: "My daughter, you have committed no sin in this case and have nothing to repent of. That you should be troubled by scruples shows that your soul is pure and that you are living in communion with God. Your bodily health is reduced by nervousness and anxiety, and it is natural that you should imagine that you have sinned where you have not sinned. That is the sweet grace of most women, but how few men! What sin there has been is not yours; therefore go home, and God comfort you." "But, dear Father ... it is so good of you, but have you forgotten...." "Your husband? No! Whether you should tell him it is beyond my power to say. In itself I should be against it, for why should you disturb his conscience and endanger the peace of a family? Your scruples about Nature coming to convict you, being without grounds of reason, are temptations of the devil and should be put behind your back. But that your marriage was a religious one only, that
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