FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   123   124   125   126   127   128   129   130   131   132   133   134   135   136   137   138   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147  
148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   >>  
r for some days after, and warmly and cordially acknowledged that he had been in the wrong. He even tried to show her that he was in earnest by assuming for a while an altered attitude towards the ladies, and actually succeeded so far that she appeared to have forgotten that anything had occurred between them, and was just the same in her intercourse with him as before--quietly friendly that is to say, as she had been of recent years. It never came to any real reconciliation on her side. She had seen too clearly that his nature was only that of a drifting cloud, glowing for the moment just as it was played upon by popular applause; and he was too profoundly selfish for any real earnest love to find a root in his composition, much less to give promise of a common life-growth. With his feeling and good-nature he would have treated any wife well, even if she had not made herself so necessary to him as she was; her social talent, she felt, was her great safety--it made him look up to her; and his vain nature required that she should be something to be proud of: but she was forced to acknowledge in her own heart with despair that she had been blinded by her love for him, that his nature was absolutely deficient in constancy and truth, and in every quality which she had once persuaded herself to see in him. She knew the secret about this man, so brilliant before the eyes of the world--that he was not a man. He lived and moved before her now like a defaced ideal, to which she was tied--to the end of her life. The bitterness of disappointment rankled in her mind, and was all the more poignant that she had to keep it shut up within herself and had no one to confide in. Her life had become a desert, and at the very moment when her husband would be making a brilliant little speech that called forth applause all round the table, she would seem to hear nothing but a rattle of emptiness. She always protested to her parents, when they could not understand why she looked so pale, that she was perfectly happy; and they had no reason to think otherwise, for she seemed to be well cared for in every respect. The only real interest which she possessed now in life was her son Frederick; but she brought him up with the utmost possible strictness, for she fancied she detected his father's nature over again in him. She had always retained her warm interest in Elizabeth, and the messages which she had received from her from time to time had al
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   123   124   125   126   127   128   129   130   131   132   133   134   135   136   137   138   139   140   141   142   143   144   145   146   147  
148   149   150   151   152   153   154   155   156   157   158   159   160   161   >>  



Top keywords:
nature
 

interest

 
brilliant
 
applause
 

moment

 

earnest

 

confide

 

desert

 

secret

 
defaced

poignant

 

rankled

 
disappointment
 
bitterness
 
emptiness
 

brought

 
utmost
 
strictness
 

Frederick

 

respect


possessed

 

fancied

 

detected

 

Elizabeth

 

messages

 
received
 
retained
 

father

 

making

 

speech


called
 
rattle
 

persuaded

 

perfectly

 
reason
 
looked
 

protested

 

parents

 

understand

 
husband

quietly

 

friendly

 

intercourse

 
occurred
 

recent

 
drifting
 

reconciliation

 

forgotten

 

appeared

 

cordially