king at John; his lips parted, and seeming now and
then to form the word 'Me!' without uttering it; his hands dropped at
his sides; his whole appearance that of a man who has been awakened from
sleep, and stupefied by intelligence beyond his full comprehension.

'Me!' he at length said aloud.

'Ah!' groaned Young John. 'You!'

He did what he could to muster a smile, and returned, 'Your fancy. You
are completely mistaken.'

'I mistaken, sir!' said Young John. '_I_ completely mistaken on that
subject! No, Mr Clennam, don't tell me so. On any other, if you like,
for I don't set up to be a penetrating character, and am well aware of
my own deficiencies. But, _I_ mistaken on a point that has caused me
more smart in my breast than a flight of savages' arrows could have
done! _I_ mistaken on a point that almost sent me into my grave, as
I sometimes wished it would, if the grave could only have been made
compatible with the tobacco-business and father and mother's feelings! I
mistaken on a point that, even at the present moment, makes me take out
my pocket-handkercher like a great girl, as people say: though I am sure
I don't know why a great girl should be a term of reproach, for every
rightly constituted male mind loves 'em great and small. Don't tell me
so, don't tell me so!'

Still highly respectable at bottom, though absurd enough upon the
surface, Young John took out his pocket-handkerchief with a genuine
absence both of display and concealment, which is only to be seen in
a man with a great deal of good in him, when he takes out his
pocket-handkerchief for the purpose of wiping his eyes. Having dried
them, and indulged in the harmless luxury of a sob and a sniff, he put
it up again.

The touch was still in its influence so like a blow that Arthur could
not get many words together to close the subject with. He assured John
Chivery when he had returned his handkerchief to his pocket, that he
did all honour to his disinterestedness and to the fidelity of his
remembrance of Miss Dorrit. As to the impression on his mind, of which
he had just relieved it--here John interposed, and said, 'No impression!
Certainty!'--as to that, they might perhaps speak of it at another time,
but would say no more now. Feeling low-spirited and weary, he would go
back to his room, with john's leave, and come out no more that night.
John assented, and he crept back in the shadow of the wall to his own
lodging.

The feeling of the blow was