this discovery it is scarcely possible
to describe. My first act was to look up and exclaim as before, "God
help me!" But there was nothing impulsive or involuntary in the prayer
this time. I fully realised the extent of my danger, and, believing
that the hour had come when nothing could save my life but the direct
interposition of my Creator, I turned to Him with all the fervour of my
heart.
At the same time I am bound to confess that my faith was very weak, and
my soul felt that solemn alarm which probably the bravest feel at the
approach of death, when that approach is sudden and very unexpected.
Nevertheless, I am thankful to say that my powers of judgment and of
action did not forsake me. I knew that it would be folly to attempt to
follow my track back again through the intricacies of the forest in so
dark a night, especially now that the track was partly mingled and
confused with that which I had made in joining it. I also knew that to
give way to despair, and lie down without a fire or food, would be to
seal my own doom. Only one course remained, and that was to keep
constantly moving until the return of day should enable me to
distinguish surrounding objects more clearly.
I went to work therefore without delay, but before doing so once again
solemnly and earnestly committed my soul and body to the care of God.
And, truly, the circumstances of my case intensified that prayer. I
felt as if I had never really prayed in earnest in my life before that
night.
Then, laying aside my gun, blanket and cooking utensils, so as to
commence my task as light as possible, I went to the most open space of
ground I could find, and there described a large circle with my
snow-shoes on. This was the track on which I resolved to perform a feat
of endurance. To walk all night without intermission, without rest, so
as to keep up my animal heat was the effort, on the success of which
depended the issue of life or death.
I began with that vigour which is born of hopeful determination to
succeed or die. But, as time wore on, the increasing weakness and
exhaustion began to render me less capable of enduring the intense cold.
Having my wallet on my back I took out some biscuit and pemmican and
ate it as I walked. This revived me a good deal, nevertheless I
restrained myself, feeling convinced that nothing but steady, quiet
perseverance would carry me through. Soon thirst began to torment me,
yet I did not dare to eat
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