FREE BOOKS

Author's List




PREV.   NEXT  
|<   2328   2329   2330   2331   2332   2333   2334   2335   2336   2337   2338   2339   2340   2341   2342   2343   2344   2345   2346   2347   2348   2349   2350   2351   2352  
2353   2354   2355   2356   2357   2358   2359   2360   2361   2362   2363   2364   2365   2366   2367   2368   2369   2370   2371   2372   2373   2374   2375   2376   2377   >>   >|  
d man's mind, the thought came to Creed that he did not quite understand her. He had in his time had occasion to class many young persons, and the feeling that he did not quite know her class of person was like the sensation a bat might have, surprised by daylight. Suddenly, without saying good-bye to him, she walked away. 'Well,' he thought, looking after her, 'your manners ain't improved by where you're living, nor your appearance neither, for all your new clothes.' And for some time he stood thinking of the stare in her eyes and that abrupt departure. Through the crystal clearness of the fundamental flux the mind could see at that same moment Bianca leaving her front gate. Her sensuous exaltation, her tremulous longing after harmony, had passed away; in her heart, strangely mingled, were these two thoughts: 'If only she were a lady!' and, 'I am glad she is not a lady!' Of all the dark and tortuous places of this life, the human heart is the most dark and tortuous; and of all human hearts none are less clear, more intricate than the hearts of all that class of people among whom Bianca had her being. Pride was a simple quality when joined with a simple view of life, based on the plain philosophy of property; pride was no simple quality when the hundred paralysing doubts and aspirations of a social conscience also hedged it round. In thus going forth with the full intention of restoring the little model to her position in the household, her pride fought against her pride, and her woman's sense of ownership in the man whom she had married wrestled with the acquired sentiments of freedom, liberality, equality, good taste. With her spirit thus confused, and her mind so at variance with itself, she was really acting on the simple instinct of compassion. She had run upstairs from Mr. Stone's room, and now walked fast, lest that instinct, the most physical, perhaps, of all--awakened by sights and sounds, and requiring constant nourishment--should lose its force. Rapidly, then, she made her way to the grey street in Bayswater where Cecilia had told her that the girl now lived. The tall, gaunt landlady admitted her. "Have you a Miss Barton lodging here?" Bianca asked. "Yes," said the landlady, "but I think she's out." She looked into the little model's room. "Yes," she said; "she's out; but if you'd like to leave a note you could write in here. If you're looking for a model, she wants work, I beli
PREV.   NEXT  
|<   2328   2329   2330   2331   2332   2333   2334   2335   2336   2337   2338   2339   2340   2341   2342   2343   2344   2345   2346   2347   2348   2349   2350   2351   2352  
2353   2354   2355   2356   2357   2358   2359   2360   2361   2362   2363   2364   2365   2366   2367   2368   2369   2370   2371   2372   2373   2374   2375   2376   2377   >>   >|  



Top keywords:

simple

 
Bianca
 

hearts

 

instinct

 

tortuous

 

quality

 

walked

 

thought

 

landlady

 

household


fought

 

position

 

spirit

 

confused

 

hedged

 

variance

 

wrestled

 

acquired

 

sentiments

 

married


ownership

 

restoring

 

freedom

 

equality

 

intention

 

liberality

 

admitted

 

Bayswater

 
Cecilia
 

Barton


lodging

 

looked

 
street
 

physical

 

awakened

 

compassion

 

upstairs

 

sights

 

sounds

 

Rapidly


requiring

 

constant

 
nourishment
 

acting

 

appearance

 
clothes
 

living

 

manners

 

improved

 
Through