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p in my workroom. This business had to be thought out. It wasn't only stokers; it was something deep, world-wide. I had come up against the slums. What had I to do with it all? I was in my room all afternoon. I heard "the Indian" at my door, but I sat still and silent, and presently he went away. Late in the twilight Eleanore came. How beautiful she was to-night. She was wearing a soft gown of silk, blue with something white at her throat and a brooch that I had given her. As she bent over my shoulder I felt her clean, fresh loveliness. "Don't you want to tell me, love, just what it was he showed you?" "I'd rather not, my dear one, it was something so terribly ugly," I said. "I don't like being so far away from you, dear. Please tell me. Suppose you begin at the start." It took a long time, for she would let me keep nothing back. "I wouldn't have thought it could hit me so hard," I said at the end. "I'm not surprised," said Eleanore. "I can't be simply angry at Joe," I went on. "He's so intensely and gauntly sincere. It isn't just talk with him, you see, as it is with Sue's parlor radical friends. Think of the life he's been leading, think of it compared to mine. Joe and I were mighty close once"--I broke off and got up restlessly. "I hate to think of him," I said. "It's funny," said Eleanore quietly. "I knew this was coming sooner or later. Ever since we've been married I've known that Joe Kramer still means more to you than any man you've ever met." "He doesn't," I said sharply. "Where on earth did you get that idea?" "From you, my love," she answered. "You can't dream how often you've spoken about him." "I didn't know I had!" It is most disquieting at times, the things Eleanore tells me about myself. "I know you don't," she continued, "you do it so unconsciously. That's why I'm so sure he has a real place in the deep unconscious part of you. He worries you. He gets you to think you've no right to be happy!" There was a bitterness in her voice that I had never heard before. "I believe in helping people--of course--whenever I get a chance," she said. "But I don't believe in this--I hate it! It's simply an insane attempt to pull every good thing down! It's too awful even to think of!" "We're not going to," I told her. "I'm sorry for Joe and I wish I could help him out of his hole. But I can't--it's too infernally deep. He won't listen to any talk from me--and as long as he won't I'll lea
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