is moment, when she had shown him the
reality of the generous nature which lay beneath her girlish
extravagances, "You are absolutely and perfectly right, dearest," he
said warmly, "and I promise you faithfully that I will not try in any
way to absorb your attention so long as your father lives. But after
that, Esmeralda, (I may call you Esmeralda, mayn't I? Dear, charming,
ridiculous name--I love it, it is so deliciously characteristic!) after
that you must let me take my right place as your chief helper and
comforter. I won't be put off any longer, and I think I shall be able
to do more for you than anyone else."
"I believe you would, but--" Esmeralda looked at him beneath a troubled,
puckered brow--"please understand exactly what you are doing! We are
dreadfully poor--we shall be poorer than ever after father's death. If
I marry I shall not have a penny; for what little there is will be
needed, and more than needed, for Bridgie and the children. It would be
rather hard on you, for, as you are not rich yourself, you ought to
marry a rich wife."
"The same argument would apply to you, wouldn't it? Are you quite sure
that you would not mind marrying a poor man, and that you would be
willing to give up luxuries for my sake?"
"If I cared enough in other ways, it would not be money that would
prevent me, but I should not like to be _very_ poor!" returned Esmeralda
honestly. "I've had a taste of it, you see, and it is so dull to be
always worried about butchers' bills, and not be able to have nice
puddings because of the eggs, and to have to turn your dresses over and
over again. I've never once in my life bought a thing because I liked
it best. I've always had to think that it was cheaper than the others,
and I must make it do. I suppose men can't realise how hard that is,
for they need so much less, and their things are so much alike; but it's
hard to know for certain that you could look just twice as nice, and
have to put up with the frumpy things, because you have no money to pay
for the pretty ones!"
"Could you look twice as nice as you do now--really?" Hilliard laughed
with happy incredulity. "Esmeralda, I don't believe it; but if you
marry me you shall try! I am not so poor that I cannot afford to be a
little extravagant for my wife, and I promise you faithfully that you
shall never be worried about the bills. I'll protect you from that, and
every other trouble, I hope, my darling!"
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